I No Longer Hope In My Situation
I’m about to say something that might sound like I’m losing my faith, but I’m not. Let me clarify myself. I am losing my faith in what I can do to change my situation. I am losing my faith in what doctors can do for my situation. It appears that every move I make leads to a dead end street. I’ve tried a million things all leading back to the same old pain. I’m exhausted from trying to be optimistic and maintain wishful thinking.
Dr. David Jeremiah in his book “When Your World Falls Apart” says the following. “Positive is a perfectly good word, and optimism is a fine thing. Unfortunately, life isn’t always positive. Sometimes things go wrong. And if our minds are set on being relentlessly positive, the time will come when we may be living in fantasy. I like to be positive, and I count myself as a very positive thinker. But here is something else I believe: If you don’t have a realistic view of adversity, the outcome won’t be very positive when it’s your turn to face it.”
So from a human standpoint I’m not putting anymore hope in my life situations. I’m not going to be unrealistic about the fact I’ve got a lot of nerve damage. Damage that may not be healed this side of Heaven. Damage that may change my approach to life for good. By taking this viewpoint I won’t be disappointed and I can continue to live. Why? Because I’m putting all my hope in my never changing Heavenly Father instead of my ever changing situations.
I expect trials because Jesus told me I will continue to face plenty of them. Therefore I must cling to the hope I can only find in Jesus instead of being let down by wishful thinking. Honestly, reaching this viewpoint has given me a peace that goes beyond all understanding. Yes I’ll keep fighting and I will keep the faith. But, I will rest my hope in Jesus Christ alone.
“I have told you all this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world.”