Sometimes You Need To Punt
You may or not be someone who understands football. Just in case let me explain myself. Anytime the offensive team has the ball they have a total of four tries to move the ball ten yards. On fourth down they can either go for the first down or punt the ball away. Many times it’s best they punt the ball away because even one yard can feel like a mile to go.
In my head, I’m just one yard away from feeling much better. However, my body’s response to my recent efforts speaks differently. My nervous system feels just as raw as ever within me. I feel miserable 90 percent of the time. I’ve adjusted my stimulator, taken all my meds and continue to pray. One thing is certain that it’s best I just punt my present life strategy away.
By that I mean, I’ve got to scratch my present game plan. I’m just not ready to take on anymore physically or emotionally. Every time I try to go back to how I used to be able to do things I just end up feeling shattered. Sometimes you just have to swallow your pride and swallow the truth. Its only insanity when you keep doing the same thing repeatedly while expecting different results. I will not give up hope, but I will choose to punt away my present approach to life. I will live to try another day.
“You say, “I am allowed to do anything”–but not everything is good for you. You say, “I am allowed to do anything”–but not everything is beneficial.”
(1 Corinthians 10:23)