It’s Like Waking From A Coma
They say waking from a coma is scary. You’re confused about what has or has not happened. You’ve possibly missed a lot of real life moments as you were busy battling for your very life. You fight to get back adjusted to living normal. Yet, there’s no denying your time in that coma affected you and your loved ones deeply.
I don’t know what it’s like to be in a coma. I do know what it feels like to be trapped inside your body’ quite awhile. For three years I simply survived. Daily, I did everything I could to stay sane. Daily, I did everything I could to resist the temptation of taking more serious drugs. I did all I could at the time to talk to my family who I dearly love. But, there weren’t many moments I could truly be there for anyone.
I may spend my entire life wondering all I missed while I was down and out. Unfortunately, I know that the list of moments is pretty long. I practically missed all of my two oldest son’s high school years. They had key performances and accomplishments that daddy just couldn’t attend. Nothing I can change now, but things I just wouldn’t have missed if healthy. Instead, I had to focus on fighting for any chance at a future with them all. Sadly I can’t redo the past, but I will do all I can to make the most of the future.
“Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead,” Philippians 3:13