Real & Raw Take 1002

I’m so tired of living a life of recovery. I’m so tired of feeling this pain. I can’t just live in the tub. It’s just so hard for me to believe that I still can’t lay down like a normal human being. The moment I do I feel like someone has planted something in my back that just desperately needs to come out.

How could I go through such a brutal surgery and only be worse than before? It’s as if the pressure on my nerve from my L5 S1 disc is still there. And now on top of that pain I have constant discomfort from the new disc, screws, and stimulator within me.

My counselor just called and I look forward to seeing him this coming Thursday. All I can do is keep processing the pain. I can’t fight with it or deny how I feel. I have reached a greater level of coping. But, I’ve found one of the biggest things is to just be honest. It does no good to pretend to be alright when you know you’re not. Confession is healing!

“Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person is powerful and effective.”
James 5:16