Life Issues Category
Dear White Friends
Posted on August 27, 2020 Leave a Comment
Obviously, I’m one of you so I’m addressing myself too. Honestly, I’ve not even been watching the news lately. I’ve been too busy seeking to love God and people. However, I can feel the tension rising again in our society. Sadly, it feels like more of a war between all humanity. Listen, if you weren’t […]
What If College Football Is Cancelled?
Posted on August 10, 2020 Leave a Comment
Right now it appears college football will likely not take place this fall. We’re talking about a sport that annually makes billions of dollars. A sport that is watched religiously by millions of people. In fact, many of us won’t know what to do on Saturdays if the season is cancelled. Honestly, I’ve been thinking […]
Parents Just Don’t Understand
Posted on July 20, 2020 Leave a Comment
For some reason this subject matter recently popped into my mind. Maybe it’s because I know my own kids feel this way at times. Maybe it’s because I’ve felt this way at times. Maybe it’s because I know we’ve all thought this way at some point or another in our lives. I can honestly say […]
Are You Living to End Racism?
Posted on June 19, 2020 Leave a Comment
Wait a minute…please don’t answer that question so fast. I need to further explain what I mean. I didn’t ask whether you think you’re a racist. I asked are you living in such a way that counters racism? Meaning, are you just protesting the issue or living in a way that helps towards fixing the […]
Dear Class Of 2020
Posted on June 6, 2020 1 Comment
I’m sorry your senior year came to such an abrupt ending. I know you had no idea that mid-march would be your last day of school. I’m sorry you missed precious senior moments with your friends. I’m sorry that even your graduation day has been very unpredictable. There’s no doubt we will all remember what […]
3 Ways You Can Help Now
Posted on May 31, 2020 Leave a Comment
For anyone who genuinely cares about people and doesn’t want to escalate this situation any further. Here are some things we all can do regardless of our race. These thIngs will proactively eliminate unnecessary conflict. These things can help us reach a higher level of peace. These things could even save someone’s life. 1 Don’t […]
Striving For Beneficial Conversation
Posted on May 30, 2020 Leave a Comment
Anytime we create “unnecessary” division we become satan’s tool. Pay attention not only to what you say, but how you say it. Don’t just make a statement, but truly aim to encourage everyone listening forward. I’ve certainly said things before full of great intentions, but my delivery or timing was all wrong. Sometimes we’re not […]
Sorry, I Can’t Stay Silent
Posted on May 30, 2020 Leave a Comment
Can I just say that the spirit within me is very disturbed from the past few days? I’m not talking about Craig’s spirit, but the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit has been screaming for my attention. The Holy Spirit has led me to work over 30 hours the last 3 days alone preparing one message […]
Teachers I See Your Heart
Posted on April 24, 2020 Leave a Comment
Many people have jobs where they seek to give their best. This unpredictable season has proven most everyone’s job truly matters in some shape or form. However, there are certain jobs, like teaching, that are simply a calling. It doesn’t mean that this job doesn’t require lots of work, but being a teacher is one […]
The Time Is Now
Posted on March 26, 2020 Leave a Comment
I’ve not been writing like I have in the past. Now, I feel the need to process the heaviness all around me. In fact, who am I kidding. There are plenty of alarms going off within me. We’re all somewhere we’ve never been before. Honestly, you would think the sky is falling down. As a […]
What Kobe Bryant Taught Us
Posted on February 2, 2020 Leave a Comment
By now most of America has heard the news. Even if you aren’t a sports fan. The sudden death of NBA superstar Kobe Bryant has dominated headlines. In fact, it seems his sudden death has grabbed the hearts of so many. I think I know why and it has little to do with basketball. One, […]
What Are You Worried About?
Posted on September 30, 2019 Leave a Comment
For many of us our minds are filled with emotions. We over think so many things and situations. What could go wrong? What might go wrong? What has gone wrong? Next thing we know we need somebody to give us a chill pill before we totally freak out. No, you’re not the only one that […]
Hilinski: Bringing Hope Beyond Football
Posted on September 29, 2019 Leave a Comment
Ryan Hilinski is just another 18 year old. However, he was one of the most sought after college quarterback recruits in the nation. At least 32 top 50 schools offered him a full scholarship to play quarterback. Schools such as Georgia, LSU, Ohio State, Oregon, Texas A&M, Stanford and his state’s pride and joy the […]
3 Reasons Marriages Struggle
Posted on July 17, 2019 Leave a Comment
This August my wife and I will have been married 22 years. We started dating 26 years ago. I thought we would’ve mastered this marriage thing by now. The truth is it’s always a challenge. Loving one another is easy. Learning how to do so in an understanding way is a constant roller coaster. I’ve […]
We All Need A Valentine
Posted on February 14, 2019 2 Comments
As Valentines Day approaches my gut tells me that somebody feels a little less loved. Whether it be because you’ve not yet found your true earthly love. Or for some reason you’ve lost your once true love. I know there are no words that heal a broken heart. I know we all have the need […]
Don’t Bury Your Story
Posted on December 21, 2018 1 Comment
Yesterday, I had to wait an extensive amount of time at my pain specialist’s office. My lower back was long overdue for another pain injection. While in the waiting room God placed beside me a divine appointment. All I needed to do was open my eyes, heart, and mouth when necessary. This middle aged lady […]
Christmas Shopping
Posted on December 13, 2018 1 Comment
My wife and I have always set a very clear budget for Christmas. Our 4 boys know they will not be getting gifts beyond our means. I doubt we’ve ever spent over $100 per child. When times were tougher we didn’t spend more than $50 per child. If Santa can’t pay his light bill he […]
“Just Say No” to Media Madness
Posted on November 26, 2018 Leave a Comment
Many people have an addiction to something just as toxic as many drugs. It’s called world news, but in reality it’s worldly opinions. Even worse than their opinions are their agendas. Most of what the media feeds us is intended to lure, anger and divide us. Even still most Americans hang on every spoken or […]
Dear Rivalry Fan
Posted on November 23, 2018 Leave a Comment
Many know its the day before the big game. Yes, the one that you really hope your team wins no matter what. It doesn’t matter how the season has gone so far. If you could pick just one game to win this would be it. Since you were a young child you’ve been clearly on […]
Look For Reasons To Celebrate
Posted on November 20, 2018 Leave a Comment
It’s that time of night again. That point I reach daily where the pain just finally wears me down. Something like electricity keeps running throughout both feet all the way up into my face. I’m tempted to throw a full blown pity party. To tell you how bad life is for me at this present […]
Parents Wake Up
Posted on November 16, 2018 Leave a Comment
For a long time I was asleep as a parent. Sure I love my children dearly and I would do anything for them. However, I believe it’s when they hit the teenage years that most of us really wake up. Why? Because what once seemed simplistic gets very complicated. Before the teenage years you’re just […]
I’m Going On Strike
Posted on November 15, 2018 Leave a Comment
I don’t know about you, but I’ve had enough. We live in a society that puts too much undeserved pressure on people. Everybody wants things to happen overnight. There’s never enough hours in the day mentality. You’ve gotta do it all and have it all now. Now, I’m all about seizing the moment in front […]
The Spirit Of Big Blue
Posted on October 27, 2018 Leave a Comment
What I’m about to share is not just for those who love the Walterboro Band of Blue. However, it’s something we all can learn from and celebrate. My seventeen year old son has been in the Band of Blue for four years and will graduate this year. It’s something I celebrate, but really hate to […]
Watch Out My Friend
Posted on October 26, 2018 Leave a Comment
How often do we plan stuff and just expect things to all work out? Then, unexpectedly something goes on that we never expected. It might be our car breaking down, a sudden tragedy, an argument with our spouse, or an issue with one of our children. The list is endless of what can happen in […]
I Feel Out Of Sync
Posted on October 24, 2018 Leave a Comment
I don’t mind at all having a break from the scorching heat. However, it’s obvious this colder weather is doing my body no favors. Every joint and piece of metal within me appears to be screaming for help. The only relief I find in these moments are heating pads and hot baths. I truly need to […]
Just Glad To Be There
Posted on October 20, 2018 Leave a Comment
Just got home from watching our home town high school Cougars play some football. They ended up losing in the fourth quarter, but I was just glad to be there. Had the honor of walking out on the field with my next to oldest son for senior night. This is his last year to march […]
Living On Fantasy Island
Posted on October 19, 2018 Leave a Comment
The younger you are the more you live in a fantasy land. You grow up with dreams of how you picture life will be. Then as you get older and older true reality sets in. You realize grade school wasn’t that bad after all. That you thought you knew stress, but then you started paying […]
4 Ways Parents Shouldn’t Communicate
Posted on October 14, 2018 Leave a Comment
I’m presently trying to adjust to being a parent of a college student, a high school senior, a freshman and a third grader. Often it’s like riding a bull that at any moment could throw you off. Like most parents my heart’s desire is to be a perfect parent. Unfortunately, I fall short daily of […]
3 Things Every Leader Must Know
Posted on June 28, 2018 Leave a Comment
Anyone who ever thinks leadership is easy has simply never been a true leader. Whether at home or on the job you’re gonna have to make tough decisions. Not every decision you make will be popular, but you’ve got to do what’s best and trust God with the rest. If you know something needs to […]
Dads Matter Too
Posted on June 16, 2018 Leave a Comment
We live in a society that doesn’t celebrate dads anywhere near as much as moms. However, even as a dad I understand why to a certain degree. We don’t actually give birth to any child. We usually aren’t near as patient. We usually aren’t around near as much. And, compared to most moms we aren’t […]
Still Fighting For Me
Posted on June 10, 2018 1 Comment
I just spent 3 1/2 hours straight in the tub. While it’s my greatest source of relief I can’t stay in there forever. My skin has definitely been reacting negatively to so much time in water. Even still, I’ll take the breakouts sometimes in exchange for the relief. Overall, my pain has been manageable. Even […]
PLEASE HELP ME
Posted on May 26, 2018 2 Comments
Last night I had a series of dreams. Not about imaginary things but of things I’ve observed in the past that still deeply move my heart in the present. In these dreams were people I had the joy of helping throughout Colleton County back when my health was much better. It was as if each […]
Will Life Ever Be The Same?
Posted on May 25, 2018 Leave a Comment
I would imagine this is a question that many ask themselves after a deep sense of loss. I know many feel this way after the loss of a very close loved one. Crazy thing is I’ve not had any recent loss of a loved one. No one in my strong circle of family or friends […]
Scared Of The Future
Posted on May 16, 2018 Leave a Comment
I believe most of us today have a fear of many things. We especially worry about what the future might hold. When it comes to our family, finances, and health just to name a few. So much going on around us on the outside triggers our deepest concerns on the inside. It is […]
Forced To Regroup
Posted on May 16, 2018 1 Comment
When life throws you a curve ball you’re often forced to regroup. Especially if what happens takes you by total surprise. It’s amazing how just one life event can force so much change. In just a moment everything you once knew as normal can be flipped upside down. Then, it takes quite some time to […]
Grief Is Always A Process
Posted on May 12, 2018 Leave a Comment
I’m not sure I agree with the statement “time heals all wounds.” That’s definitely not true concerning all griefs in this life. Some things you don get over, but God carries you through. With time some things may get a little easier. But, anytime you’re grieving the loss of someone or something you can’t reverse […]
Getting Rid Of A Guilty Conscience
Posted on May 11, 2018 Leave a Comment
I’ve often said satan makes us feel guilty, but God makes us feel convicted. What’s the difference? Conviction is when we know something needs to change in our heart or life. Conviction can lead to a much needed positive change. Feeling guilty just pure leaves miserable over things. It’s when you just beat yourself up […]
When The Pain Is Insane
Posted on May 8, 2018 Leave a Comment
I’m praying the Valium I took will settle me down soon. And, I’m believing the prayers of many will accomplish the rest. Outside of just pure misery this level of nerve pain crushes my spirit deep within. As strong as my faith is I’m still human. Each time I feel I’m headed towards the mountain […]
When You Can You Must
Posted on May 4, 2018 Leave a Comment
It has been over a week since I had the strength to do anything towards my recovery. Nerve pain still won’t let me just take a long walk. I’ve spent most all my time either in the bed, tub, or headed to the next doctor’s appointment. I’ve had to keep myself from driving anywhere that […]
It’s Now 3am
Posted on May 1, 2018 1 Comment
If my heart rate was not alright I would be heading up to the emergency room. I’ve been here many, many times before, but never with my legs hurting this bad. I believe I have felt the edge leave a little since turning the stimulator totally off. But, I’m talking pain that takes your breath […]
Just Before I Preach
Posted on April 29, 2018 Leave a Comment
It’s 9:10am as I write this knowing I’ve got to preach two worship services this morning. No one really understands but God exactly what I feel. Anyone evaluating what’s going inside my body right now would yell “Just Give Up.” But, everything within me is saying “Just Hold On.” I’m constantly hearing both voices around […]
The Preacher’s Family
Posted on April 27, 2018 Leave a Comment
Earlier my wife and I had a normal argument that was escalated by the fact we are both exhausted. No, we’re not on the verge of a divorce. Yes, we still love each other. But, God prompted me to shed light on some things that someone reading this might need to hear. The preacher, his […]
The Tide Is Rising
Posted on April 10, 2018 Leave a Comment
I’ve cried more today than I ever have in my life. My body has been shaken to the core. My entire nervous system is a train wreck. It’s an understatement to say that my strength is gone and I’m out of breath. By far this is the most intense battle I’ve ever faced. Fortunately, I […]
Dear Younger Me
Posted on April 8, 2018 Leave a Comment
I figure I’m at least midway through my life. I’ve thought deeply about some things I would tell the younger me. And while I can’t go back and relive any of my past I’m hoping what I’ve learned might help someone just starting out their life journey. These are just a few things that I […]
Invisible Until Visible Diseases
Posted on April 6, 2018 Leave a Comment
Ever heard of things like anxiety, grief, depression, or addiction just to name a few? These things make up part of a list a mile long of things many struggle with all the time even if most people only see the major side effects some of the time. I never fully recognized such things until […]
The Moment I Lay Down
Posted on April 6, 2018 Leave a Comment
As crazy as it may sound to some the moment I lay down is when my greatest battle begins. It instantly exposes the things inside my back that were not God-made. I do believe God uses doctors, surgeries, technology and medications. However, nothing done to me has brought me much relief. When I lay […]
Do I Have An Identity Crisis?
Posted on March 29, 2018 Leave a Comment
I’ve been reading the last few weeks a book that has really spoken to my heart. It’s called “When Your World Falls Apart” by Dr. David Jeremiah. I’ve realized that I really didn’t even know what I was made of until my world as I knew it literally flipped upside down 30 months ago. I […]
I Want To Jump Off A Bridge
Posted on March 28, 2018 Leave a Comment
There is no way I can fully describe today’s doctor visit in just one article. Thank God for a great friend driving me an hour there and back. I desperately needed someone who at least is trying to understand my situation. Earlier I went to see my pain specialist and just as I expected absolutely […]
My Phone Spoke To Me
Posted on March 23, 2018 Leave a Comment
Many of you know that follow my journey I’m known for sharing the good, the bad and the ugly. Well when my first medicine alarm woke my exhausted body up this morning at 7am I found the following words typed, but left unposted on my phone. All I remember is it was after 3am and […]
When You’re Just Not Sure
Posted on March 21, 2018 Leave a Comment
There always seems to be something or someone you’re just not sure how to approach. Usually when you’re just not sure it truly is best you move forward with precaution and preciseness. Obviously it’s something you feel like is fragile and possibly risky. So, the situation demands you begin by being still before God. Here […]
It’s Like A Death Except
Posted on March 9, 2018 1 Comment
It’s only been 30 straight months of dealing with uncontrollable nerve pain. I’ve gone through more medications in that time than many will see all their entire life. Everything has been a process of trial and error. I’ve tried surgery, a spinal cord stimulator, therapy, walking, pain shots, Rhizotomy, natural supplements, counseling, prescription medications, lots […]
Dear Unchurched Friend
Posted on March 4, 2018 Leave a Comment
I feel led to share just a few words with you. Nothing that I will say will be from a condemning or judging attitude. In fact, I know plenty of people who go to to church that act worse than most outside of the church. But, this has nothing to do with comparing anyone or […]
How To Fight With Your Spouse
Posted on February 13, 2018 Leave a Comment
Originally posted on Pastor Craig Crosby:
You name it and we’ve fought about it. Finances, house chores, children, pets, he said, she said, and everything else in between. I honestly believe that any married couple that says they don’t fight is either still on their honeymoon or just never sees one another. In the course…
Are You Being Tested?
Posted on February 10, 2018 Leave a Comment
God must have some BIG plans ahead for me. I bet I can’t even fathom what lies ahead on the other side of this fiery trial. Don’t get me wrong I’ve faced many seasons of adversity in the past. But, none of it ever held a candle to the nonstop torment in the present season. […]
In The Wilderness
Posted on February 3, 2018 Leave a Comment
I’ve been in the bed the past 12 hours in a somewhat sleeping state. Had to sit up in the bed and sleep due to something continuing make my heart feel like it’s racing. Anytime I check my heart rate or blood pressure both are fine. All this morning my legs and my chest have […]
What If I Were Lost?
Posted on February 3, 2018 Leave a Comment
I’m sure many think I’m just complaining all the time. That I’m just struggling like everybody does and can’t handle much. But, I can assure you that being in my painful body is pure torcher. I’m dealing with head to toe pain that just won’t let up. Discomforting sensations have constantly run through my entire […]
The Anchor Holds
Posted on February 2, 2018 Leave a Comment
As I sit in this tub for physical relief I’m not able to run from my emotional distress. As we all know you could leave the country and your feelings would still be with you. It’s hard when all your energy to fight is gone. When you’ve had nothing but countless hours to think about […]
Dealing With My Nerves
Posted on February 2, 2018 Leave a Comment
I’ve learned how to cope with most of my greatest issues. I usually know when to take it easy. I know when to elevate my legs to calm my back pain. I know when I simply need a healthy walk. I know when I need to phone a friend or family member. But, I just […]
Pain Changes You
Posted on February 2, 2018 Leave a Comment
You would think by now I would be used to it. But, I’m afraid there is no totally getting used to dealing with pain that constantly interrupts your life. It’s with you when you wake up. It’s with you when you leave your house. It’s with you when you sit up, lay down, and go […]
God Is Making Me Over
Posted on January 31, 2018 Leave a Comment
I know deep in my heart that I must officially say goodbye to the old me. Gone are the days that I can live as a daily oncall chaplain. Gone are the days that I can go play baseball or basketball with my boys. Gone are the days that I can go out with my […]
Honesty Is Healthy And Purposeful
Posted on January 31, 2018 Leave a Comment
I periodically go see a professional counselor and make sure I process my pain honestly with those I feel I can trust. The truth is not everyone can be trusted with your honesty. Someone who doesn’t know your heart can be very quick to judge your heart. However, we all need a safe place to […]
Let Faith Arise
Posted on January 31, 2018 Leave a Comment
Still no sleep as I lie here itching from the constant vibrations of nerve pain throughout my body. There seems to be only two states of living for me. Either thinking the worst is behind me or absolute misery. The unpredictable misery drives me insane. I would pay any amount of money to get rid […]
Afraid Of The “What If”
Posted on January 29, 2018 Leave a Comment
Well I’m back in the tub seemingly the only place I can find some relief. To say I’m exhausted is an understatement. My body has been throbbing constantly since 3am this morning and it’s past 3pm now. I can barely even stand up on my on two legs. How I preached two Sunday services today […]
3 Traits Of A Great Caregiver
Posted on January 27, 2018 1 Comment
While making it through anything difficult your support system is always critical. I know I would not be near as sane or strong without mine. My support system is a collective group of family, friends, and of course Jesus. But, while imperfect I believe my wife is the absolute perfect caregiver when it comes to […]
Still Broken, But Encouraged
Posted on January 27, 2018 Leave a Comment
My pain had been very bearable and my soul at peace for close to 36 hours. So, I was excited to get out the house and ride with my parents to Cracker Barrel. I had not one sign that would indicate my body was about to crash. However, I was very uncomfortable trying to sit […]
I Know I’m Depressed
Posted on January 25, 2018 1 Comment
Maybe it’s been the case for some time. Maybe I’ve just been in denial. But, I can no longer deny what is obvious to me every day God allows me to wake up. I am actively battling this thing called depression. The following definition by Merriam Webster defines how I feel. “ Depression is a […]
The Biggest Storm Of My Life
Posted on January 25, 2018 Leave a Comment
What I’m about to say I know many of you can relate. Personally I’m in the biggest storm of my life. I’m extremely miserable about 70 percent of the time. The other 30 percent of the time I’m asleep. My body feels like it’s burning from the inside out. It still appears that someone has […]
Will You Be Faithful Even When It Hurts
Posted on January 25, 2018 Leave a Comment
Written: 1/23/18 I’m back in the tub and honestly my back feels like I just had surgery yesterday. It physically hurts so bad in the surgical area in a way I’ve not felt in quite sometime. I really don’t know what to do to improve things. This level of pain just sucks the air and […]
I JUST DON’T KNOW
Posted on January 22, 2018 1 Comment
Written: January 21st, 2018 (PM) I always hate to admit it, but my body still can’t handle a full day of anything. I have been absolutely thrilled today to celebrate all God has done in just 4 years of Refuge Church’s existence. However, most of my spine can’t even be touched it’s so sore and […]
He Will Never Leave Or Fail
Posted on January 22, 2018 Leave a Comment
Written: January 21st, 2018 Today has been another God made day. This makes the 4th day in a row that my meds have kept my nerve pain under control. However, I’ve been back in the hot tub for over two hours and counting. But, I’m not complaining because it’s easing the pain in my legs […]
GOD OF MIRACLES
Posted on January 22, 2018 Leave a Comment
It’s 4am Sunday, January 21, 2018 and my aching body has me back in the hot tub. My medication has actually been keeping my nerve pain bearable for 3 days straight. I just simply have issues that apart from a miracle just won’t be healing this side of heaven. But, I believe in miracles because […]
I Reflect At Night
Posted on January 22, 2018 Leave a Comment
Written: January 19th, 2018 pm Often it’s not until I totally slow down and lay down that I’m forced to reflect. So much goes through my mind and rest on my heart. I believe most of us are our own worst critics. However, I definitely believe we need to have a daily time of personal […]
Tormented In The Night
Posted on January 22, 2018 Leave a Comment
Written: January 19th, 2018 All night Satan has tormented me in my sleep. I’ve woken up basically every hour with my heart pounding. Each time I’ve had to sit up in the bed and just keep taking deep breaths. I’m pretty sure I’ve freaked my wife a few times as I wasn’t sure myself what […]
We All Need Somebody
Posted on January 22, 2018 Leave a Comment
Written: January 18th, 2018 Today has been a very special day. It’s going to sound minor, but I’m thrilled that I’ve not had to take a Valium all day long. My doctor has increased my meds in hopes of keeping the edge off of my nerve pain. And it appears to be working. Today […]
Anxiety Can’t Just Be Ignored
Posted on January 18, 2018 Leave a Comment
I’ve now approached exactly 28 months since nerve pain took over my body. Yet, even after surgery, a spinal cord stimulator, countless shots, daily therapy and a continued increase in medications I feel back to square one. Today, I’ve experienced another crash, burn and cry session. I’ve […]
Use The Platform God Gives You
Posted on January 18, 2018 Leave a Comment
Woke up today feeling better than yesterday so far and the hot tub is at least soothing me some. I’ve definitely discovered over time that my nerve pain is just so easily triggered. It doesn’t take much critical or deep conversation for things to switch into high gear. Then shortly after that I can hardly […]
It’s Not About Me
Posted on January 15, 2018 Leave a Comment
Back in my favorite most relieving spot the hot tub. Man on man does God continue to affirm that my present struggle has such purpose. I may not like how I feel, but it creates a straight bridge of understanding to so many hearts. Many others can identify with my pain and sorrow. Today it […]
Feeling Misunderstood Hurts
Posted on January 15, 2018 Leave a Comment
Written: Jan 13th, 2018 Earlier I was in the middle of a simple conversation with my boys. Next thing I know I feel my nerve pain flooding throughout my body. It’s in that moment I know I need to cease conversation immediately and exit the room as soon as possible. Why? Because the moment my […]
Another Raw & Real Moment
Posted on January 15, 2018 Leave a Comment
Written: Jan 12, 2018 (Late Night) Please don’t take a word I’m about to share as whining or just wanting attention. What I’m about to write is just for my own sanity, healing and hoping to let someone else not feel so alone in their journey. Extreme pain for too long takes you to a […]
Frozen In Time
Posted on January 15, 2018 1 Comment
Written: Jan 12th, 2018 One thing about chronic illness is it’s hard to separate your days from nights. Every hour feels like a day and everyday feels like forever. You feel like life is standing still and often like it’s passing by without you. Everyday feels the same as your pain leaves you feeling like […]
THANK YOU GOD FOR MY SUFFERING
Posted on January 12, 2018 1 Comment
I’ve reached a point I never thought I could or would. I’m beginning to thank God for my pain. Even as nerve pain continues to radiate through my body I just can’t deny what I’m sensing and seeing. God is using my pain for my good, the good of others, and for His glory. Once […]
Living Without My Full Legs
Posted on January 10, 2018 Leave a Comment
It’s been well over a year since I’ve ever gotten an ounce of sleep without medication. Even still I’m thankful for rest any way I can get it. It’s my only chance at recharging and possibly healing. Asleep is the only time I’m totally without pain and some level of discomfort. Everyday I’m learning how […]
“Don’t Waste A Failure”
Posted on January 9, 2018 Leave a Comment
It really caught my attention the moment it was spoken. I certainly didn’t expect God to speak to me while I was watching ESPN’s coverage of the College Football Championship. But, then a sports analyst quoted the following words spoken by one of the winningest football coaches ever. Alabama’s Head Coach Nick Saban has said […]
Waiting On My World To Change
Posted on January 9, 2018 Leave a Comment
Written: January 6th, 2018 I struggle these days to even describe how I feel. It’s nothing new I can tell you. The words freshly on my tongue are tormented, miserable, painful, perplexed, impatient, distracted, discouraged, exhausted, shocked and waiting on things to change. I feel like I’ve been waiting for eternity, but it’s actually only […]
Hoping For Change In 2018?
Posted on January 3, 2018 Leave a Comment
I don’t know about you, but I can’t wait for the new year to begin. I realize it’s just another year and that nothing will dramatically change over night. However, I find we all need seasons of reflection, refocus, and renewal. We can’t just keep running on autopilot and expect things we never aimed for […]
God, Please Slay This Giant
Posted on January 3, 2018 2 Comments
I spent most of January 1, 2018 dealing with lots of nerve pain. I’ve now woke up on January 2nd with nerve pain running through my body once again. Just had to call and cancel my first physical therapy session of the New Year. Knowing I’ve got irreparable nerve damage “by man” stinks. It is […]
Let ‘Em Work, Let ‘Em Live
Posted on December 31, 2017 Leave a Comment
A believing mindset really does make a huge difference. For reasons I still don’t understand I have such peace. Peace that everything will work itself out with time. Peace that God is still purposely using my hardship to shape me and encourage others. Peace that if I keep doing my part God will certainly do […]
Old Feelings Were Resurrected
Posted on December 31, 2017 Leave a Comment
Written: 12/28/31 Ever have something unexpected happen that quickly reopens an old wound you thought was scarred shut? Suddenly the pain takes you back in time to a place you would rather forget. Before you know it you’re anxiety is sky rocketing. Satan has you thinking that any perceived progress made was all in your […]
Dear Lonely, Grieving And Confused
Posted on December 27, 2017 Leave a Comment
I can’t say I know how you feel. But, I’ve looked in enough of your eyes to see the magnitude of your pain. My heart sincerely aches for those who are missing loved ones dearly this holiday season. I truly don’t think there is anything harder than feeling alone or abandoned. Maybe the love of […]
Bad Day, Good God
Posted on December 27, 2017 Leave a Comment
I had to look back at my own Facebook timeline to recall the last time I felt so badly. To my surprise it was only a few days ago. Yet, in my mind I feel like I’ve not felt this badly in months. My nerve pain is raging and my pain level is at least […]
In His Time
Posted on December 27, 2017 Leave a Comment
Went to bed last night in great discomfort, but my medication finally knocked me out. Then, I was awoken after cooler temperatures caused my entire nervous system to go haywire. The good news is my recent pain shot has not created as much pain as it usually does the days following. The bad news is […]
Our Weakness, God’s Platform
Posted on December 21, 2017 Leave a Comment
Written: 12-20-17 I’ve not been able to sleep one minute since my pain injection this morning. However, I’m finally getting more comfortable with my nighttime medications digesting. I’ve been trying all I can to put finishing touches on my Christmas Eve message for this Sunday. Preaching to a couple hundred folks is not something I […]
Lord, I Need You
Posted on December 21, 2017 Leave a Comment
Written: 12-19-17 Here I go again. I’m back in the hot tub due to nerve pain running throughout my body. Had to take another Valium for the first time in about 2 weeks. All evening has been rough as I just don’t feel comfortable in my own skin. Lord knows I would give anything for […]
Can I Get A Hot Tub?
Posted on December 21, 2017 Leave a Comment
12-18-17 Here I go again having to lay back in our jet tub. Seems I reach a point everyday where it’s the only thing that will calm my flaming nerves. I spend an average of two to three hours a day in a hot tub. Laying here brings such such peace to my body and […]
Miracle Of Mercy
Posted on December 21, 2017 Leave a Comment
Written: 12-17-17 Well today has been a pretty awesome day. Seeing God work around me, despite me and through me always lifts my spirits. I’m learning that I don’t have to be at my best for God to deliver His best. All I need to do is surrender the best I have to offer for […]
Suffering Is Everywhere
Posted on December 21, 2017 Leave a Comment
Written: 12/16/17 This post is less about my pain and more about awareness of the struggles of so many young and old. I’ve felt uncomfortable in my own body since early this morning. I’ve adjusted my spinal stimulator twice today and I’ve done everything to help better my situation. Still I wait second by second […]
I Met A Man With No Hands
Posted on December 16, 2017 Leave a Comment
Recently, I was inside a store looking to buy some ginger bread houses. While searching the shelves I realized the boxes I needed were out of my reach. I then asked a gentleman on the other side if he would kindly hand me the boxes I needed. At first, he gave me a look like […]
God Will Pick You Up
Posted on December 15, 2017 Leave a Comment
A little over 3 weeks ago I finally reached all I could take. I was truly having a nervous breakdown. My body was exhausted, my energy was gone, and my belief that anything would change was almost gone. I felt compelled to wave my white flag of surrender. I even concluded that I could not […]
You Never Get Used To It
Posted on December 15, 2017 Leave a Comment
Written: 12/13/17 Right now my lower back feels like a huge piece of metal is misplaced inside. Oh, what I wouldn’t give for someone to take it out. Some people say that pain is just something you’ve got to put mind over matter. Well, unless I can be hypnotized I’ve found no way to totally […]
The ELEPHANT In The Church
Posted on December 13, 2017 Leave a Comment
Before you even get started reading this article I need to make something very clear. I believe very strongly in the church and its mission to tell the world about Jesus. Therefore, nothing I’m about to write has anything to do with putting any church down or comparing churches. I only write articles after God […]
Evil Has A Face
Posted on December 12, 2017 Leave a Comment
More than ever before in my life I feel I’ve seen the face of evil. I’m not just saying this because we’re living in troubled times. I’m not just saying this because of things I’ve only seen recently. I’m saying this because it took me many encounters to see the many faces of evil. When […]
A Sad World We Live In
Posted on December 12, 2017 Leave a Comment
Earlier I sought to pick up an item my wife ordered online on Craigslist. Of course, nether of us ever met personally the man she talked with by phone. All we knew was it was an older man who moved to the Low Country from Minnesota. He sounded totally harmless for sure. So coming upon […]
Control What You Can
Posted on December 2, 2017 Leave a Comment
My therapist just spoke some simple, but life changing truth into my life. He said, “I know you feel like you’re drowning in pain. And I know your pain affects every area of your life. But, instead of focusing on all you can’t control focus on what you can.” While nothing he said was new […]
Deep Confessions Of A Pastor
Posted on November 30, 2017 Leave a Comment
Every time you read my posts on this page you are hearing directly from a broken pastor. My humanity can’t help but reveal itself as I’m forced from within to be honest. My honesty is key to my own processing and healing. I would hate for anything I write to make you discredit my faith […]
The Best & Worst Of Times
Posted on November 30, 2017 Leave a Comment
Written: November 28th, 2017 Everyday has been an uncertain challenge for over 26 months. Yes, I still battle with as much uncertainty now with my back and nerve pain as I ever did prior to any surgery. This has been the most painful and meaningful journey of my life. I do my best not to […]
Take Your Mask Off
Posted on November 27, 2017 Leave a Comment
I’m used to meeting people in difficult places. In the middle of great crisis is where most ministry opportunity begins. One thing I’ve noticed over time is how so many people feel compelled to apologize for how they are feeling and where they are in the moment. I just feel compelled to tell them it’s […]
God Is Not Done Yet
Posted on November 14, 2017 Leave a Comment
Everyday is such a physical struggle for me. Even when I look like I’m fine I feel I’m just one step away from not getting back up. My legs feel so heavy, my lower back aches continually, and my limitations are many. But, I can feel God at work every step of the way. Yes, […]
Dear Confused
Posted on November 9, 2017 Leave a Comment
I would like take the time to introduce myself. I’m a born again believer in Jesus Christ. My life was forever changed the day I asked Jesus into my heart to be my savior and Lord. Now, I’m not perfect but by God’s grace, through faith in Jesus Christ alone I’m heaven bound. No longer […]
You Just Don’t Understand
Posted on November 7, 2017 Leave a Comment
Written: November 1st, 2017 I’m just leaving my 2nd Of 3 physical therapy sessions this week. And here soon I will call an older gentleman I just met for the very first time. You see, while there may be nearly 25 years between us there is so much we have in common. Most of all […]
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Posted on October 31, 2017 Leave a Comment
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My Breaking Point
Posted on October 31, 2017 Leave a Comment
I’m passionate about being able to help others sort through life’s most difficult moments. I simply help them apply God’s never changing truth to their ever changing circumstances. But, I’ve learned that sometimes I must say “It’s me, It’s me oh Lord. Standing in the need of prayer.” Now, please don’t inform others that the […]
Don’t Assume Things
Posted on October 24, 2017 Leave a Comment
I’ve said this often and I believe it wholeheartedly. You don’t really know anyone until you know their story. We have all been guilty of assuming things about others based on what we think we know from outside perception. You have to take the time to get to know someone before you can know much […]
You Never Get Used To It
Posted on October 24, 2017 Leave a Comment
Maybe it’s been building? Maybe it can just be triggered in the blink of an eye? But, regardless of how it happens I never get used to it taking my breath, confidence, and joy away. I just had to pull out my heating pad and take a Valium. Once again nerve pain is surging through […]
Nights Are Most Painful
Posted on October 24, 2017 Leave a Comment
What is it about the night that makes your pain so much stronger? Why is it you’re so exhausted all day, but then can’t sleep so easily at night? Why do things seem so much more unbearable at night? I think I’ve got some answers to those questions. One, its in the stillness of the […]
Day 762 Of Nerve Pain
Posted on October 24, 2017 Leave a Comment
PROGRESS for me these days is a very big word. As much as my morning and evening therapy is stirring up my nerves like crazy I can feel some mobility returning. My body has just been stuck for so long it needed help awakening. I really do feel this is doing more good than harm. […]
A Breakthrough Moment
Posted on October 24, 2017 Leave a Comment
I just finished up my second session of Physiotherapy. During this time I’ve had to move body parts that have been protected and stiff for sometime. Basically I was at ground zero with the motions needed to move forward in my lower back recovery. Honestly, every pain I felt was a good kind because I […]
He Will Carry You
Posted on October 24, 2017 Leave a Comment
For quite awhile I’ve felt like an outmatched boxer just one punch away from being knocked out cold. One moment I feel I can beat this battle the next my head is spinning. If I was sizing things up based on odds alone I would been thrown in the towel. However, I must admit I’ve […]
When You’re Being Rocked
Posted on October 12, 2017 Leave a Comment
There are moments that all you can do is just hold on to the God of all understanding, peace and power. You feel the boat you’re in presently is rocking so much you’re just not sure how much longer you can “fake it.” Yes, I said “fake it” because many are just trying to pretend […]
In The Valley
Posted on October 12, 2017 Leave a Comment
You would think I’d be used to this by now. But, you never get used to something that keeps you miserable all the time. Every night especially feels much like a nightmare until my medication finally drifts me off to sleep. Right now my entire body feels like it’s vibrating. It’s as if my nerves […]
Please Forgive Me God & Mr. President
Posted on October 12, 2017 Leave a Comment
I’ve got something to admit that God has convicted me about. I have never “liked” Donald Trump before or now. However, God has made clear to my heart that acting just out of my feelings is rarely best. You don’t have to like someone to treat them how you would want to be treated. You […]
I Needed Real Life Support
Posted on October 12, 2017 Leave a Comment
Lately it’s been hard just to breathe. Trying to process anything other than my next breath has been a huge challenge. Lord knows I’ve tried so hard to be strong. Lord knows I’ve tried so hard to get well. Lord knows I’ve prayed and prayed things would turn around. Then, to my complete surprise things […]
He Breaks My Fall
Posted on October 4, 2017 Leave a Comment
Right now as I write this he is on the top bunk and I’m on the bottom. I’m just lying here as it settles him to fall asleep quicker. But, little does he know that it’s his presence and his prayers that settle me. But, how can you fully explain that to a 7 year […]
A Nervous Wreck
Posted on October 4, 2017 Leave a Comment
The nerve damage within my body is so sensitive to everything. It’s triggered by every move, every thought, and even loud machinery. Awhile back my dad was grinding a stump nearby and it felt like he was literally grinding me. Within just a few minutes it took my pain from a level 4 to a […]
It Hit Me Like A Hurricane
Posted on September 23, 2017 2 Comments
September 17th, 2017 marked the two year anniversary of the most life altering event of my life. I had just finished visiting with several hospice patients inside a nursing home facility. I was walking towards the cafeteria for lunch. Next thing I know I’m three feet in the air right before pounding the cement floor […]
God You Must Think I’m Strong
Posted on September 20, 2017 Leave a Comment
I’m sure you’ve heard the old saying “God won’t put more on you than you can handle.” Well, I beg to differ with that statement. God has put way more on me than I can handle for quite awhile. And just when I feel like I can handle things I realize I just can’t. The […]
Approach God Like You’re 7
Posted on September 20, 2017 Leave a Comment
It’s so refreshing having a seven old in your home. He reminds me what it’s like to have a childlike faith. Whatever he prays he expects God to answer. Everyday he thanks God for what he calls the “best day ever.” He still thanks God for watching over his “Boo Boo” our family dog that […]
When Relationships Go Wrong
Posted on September 20, 2017 Leave a Comment
I don’t think there is anything harder to heal from than relational hurt. Especially when someone you really love has left you with a feeling of betrayal. You’re left lying awake for countless hours wondering what you could have done differently. Not to mention the fact you feel like you are slowly bleeding inside.So, what […]
Confession Is Healing
Posted on September 8, 2017 Leave a Comment
I realize not everybody finds it easy to share what’s on their heart and mind. And, I’m not saying it’s best you always say what you’re thinking or feeling. But, I do know it’s very healthy to have somewhere you can just unload your heavy heart. If you can’t be honest with your friends are […]
Watch Your Mouth
Posted on August 14, 2017 Leave a Comment
It seems these days everyone’s mouth is a loose canon. Yet, because words do matter society is ripped apart one careless word at a time. I know I’ve needed my mouth washed out with soap more than a few times. And you don’t have to be using profanity to be in the wrong. The Bible […]
In The Repair Shop
Posted on July 17, 2017 Leave a Comment
For quite sometime I’ve felt like I’ve spent more time on the bench than in the game. Knowing my present limitations and knowing my body must have time to heal. Of course there are many things I feel I’ve missed. But, I’ve come to realize this is not wasted time. God just has me in […]
Why You Gotta Be So Mean?
Posted on July 17, 2017 Leave a Comment
I’ll never forget the words of someone back when my pain was totally unbearable and driving me insane. This professional said, “Oh that pain is all in your head. I’ve got some mind therapy recordings I can let you borrow to get it out of your mind.” I have to admit that over 18 months […]
Flat On Your Back
Posted on July 17, 2017 Leave a Comment
You really don’t know who you are, where you are and what you’re made of until life knocks you flat on your back. It’s then you’re introduced to your humanity and desperateness for an Almighty God. It’s then you learn to value things that really matter and trust things that really last. It’s then God […]
I Just Had To Try
Posted on June 9, 2017 Leave a Comment
After months of research and great anticipation the big day finally arrived. I got to try for 7 days a temporary spinal cord stimulator in hopes of finding significant pain relief. Wires were put into my back and connected to a battery back. Then, everything was taped so much to my back that even the […]
Why You Gotta Be So Rude?
Posted on June 5, 2017 Leave a Comment
Recently my oldest son Matthew graduated from Colleton County High School. There could not have been two prouder parents watching that day. We took every picture we could and enjoyed all that day had to offer. The only thing I didn’t like was what we encountered in our attempt to exit the school parking lot. […]
Uncomfortable In My Own Skin
Posted on May 15, 2017 1 Comment
Mother’s Day started out as a pretty good day. I woke up very grateful for the mother I’ve been blessed to have all my life. In fact, I preached about how grateful I was before many others at church. Everything was great until nerve pain began to surge throughout my body. I’m talking about the […]
Miracle On Chestnut Street
Posted on May 1, 2017 2 Comments
I received the following text message from a friend on Saturday night, April 22nd at approximately 11:26pm. “Sorry to bother you so late. Chris and Fannie’s baby John is being flown to MUSC. He has a fractured skull and is not responding. He walked behind a bat after it was swung and was hit in […]
Thank God For The Pain
Posted on April 26, 2017 Leave a Comment
Unless I take knockout medication I’m usually not getting any sleep before 2am. Yet, even through the long nights and days I can hear God’s voice so clearly. As much as this journey has exhausted me I’m thankful for all the ways God has used the pain. I see life totally different than before. I’m […]
Don’t Be Afraid To Wait
Posted on April 24, 2017 2 Comments
PATIENCE. I’m just not sure that any of us are born with this ability. Yet, it’s something we all must develop if we plan to accomplish anything great. Why? Because life is full of waiting seasons. However, waiting never seems to be easy for most of us. Before we ever even breathe our first breath […]
It’s Just Tough To Be Here
Posted on April 8, 2017 1 Comment
The days and nights are so long. I’m so far from feeling like myself. In fact, I’m simply somewhere in life I’ve never been before. I desperately wish things could just go back to normal. Yet, even after much prayer the pain is still real and the reality is constant. I can so relate to […]
Just Get It Off Your Chest
Posted on April 3, 2017 Leave a Comment
As I write this I’m sitting in bed with a brace around my neck, ice on my shoulders, and a heating pad on my lower back. I would like to say this is an abnormal experience, but lately it’s become rather normal. For over 11 months since my major back surgery recovery has been a […]
Dear Married Man
Posted on March 18, 2017 Leave a Comment
Almost everyday in the midst of many Christian songs, I intentionally listen to the song “Better Man” by the country group Little Big Town. Why? Because I want to remind myself what I’ve seen over and over again in counsel situations. I’ve looked in the face of so many “used to be married” eyes where […]
Dear Sick & Healthy
Posted on March 10, 2017 Leave a Comment
One of the biggest things I’ve learned in this health battle journey is what many long term patients feel. Life changes for you. You have few moments you come up for air, but most of the time you feel under the weather (Just Not Yourself). You never feel quite normal and you can never fully […]
A Fight Beyond The Flesh
Posted on March 10, 2017 Leave a Comment
Anytime you get closer to the goal line the defense rises to another level. I can feel the enemy’s attack even greater than before. There is no making sense of it except to call it spiritual warfare. I know some of you think this is just preacher talk. But, trust me when Satan sees you […]
Dear Stuck
Posted on March 2, 2017 Leave a Comment
Sometimes you just find yourself in a tougher season where nothing feels easy and momentum just can’t be found. It doesn’t mean God is not at work, but you just feel stuck. In these moments you must “Be still and know He is God.” In these moments you need not panic about anything, but you […]
When You’re Going Through Hell
Posted on February 24, 2017 Leave a Comment
For those right now going through a battle way beyond your control. I know you are scared, hurting, and wondering when it will all come to an end. I’ve been in that kind of season for over 17 months now. Here are some things I’ve discovered will help you deal with things. #1 Be honest […]
Let Go And Let God Work
Posted on February 6, 2017 Leave a Comment
I spend a lot of time daily with my heating pad, bible, and note pad. Sometimes late night and always early morning. I can thank my present trial for a lot of present gifts. Now, I know I’m not the only one in pain. Every time I even head out my house I run into […]
What About The Caregiver?
Posted on January 20, 2017 Leave a Comment
What I’m about to write comes from a lot of firsthand observation. Not just outside my home, but inside my house. When someone is sick and struggling the patient normally gets the bulk of the attention. The concern and prayers are often focused on an audience of one. But, what about the caregiver? My own […]
I’m So Tired Of Fighting
Posted on December 19, 2016 2 Comments
The hardest tests to deal with in life are the ones that last much longer than you would like. In fact, you wonder if they will ever end. These tests change life as you once knew it. You are forced to make drastic adjustments and free fall in the arms of the Almighty. For a […]
Keep Faith Walking!
Posted on December 5, 2016 Leave a Comment
It’s been exactly 7 months since my back surgery. I feel like I’m at the halfway point of a very big game. I’m exhausted, I’m sore, and I wish things were easier & faster. But, quit is not an option. So, I’ve got to keep taking the next right step forward. I can’t focus on […]
Are You Ready For The Big Game?
Posted on November 21, 2016 Leave a Comment
This week many will get ready for the big game. Those who might not have watched a second of football all season will suddenly scream for either the Gamecocks or the Tigers. In fact, if you grew up in the state of South Carolina you completely understand this rivalry game […]
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