FAITH WALKING Category

Count Your Blessings

I’ve dealt with a bit of a flair with my nerve condition. For the past 6 hours my skin has been crawling. This uncomfortable tingling is running throughout my entire nervous system. I wish I could find the off switch. So far nothing has stopped it or slowed it down. This chaotic disruption within me […]

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Dad Needs Me Now

All my life my dad has worked hard. He has sought to be a great provider and dad. He has been a great man of God and example to follow. The first half of my life he was my actual pastor. The second half of my life he has still been a pastor I could […]

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Leading In This Season

I can’t put it fully into words. This season has just been a tough time to be a leader. So many divisions, opinions, and anxious thoughts. Everybody is seeing things through their own viewpoint. Some watch this network and others watch another. Some believe in masks others don’t even believe there is a threat. All […]

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I’m Much Better Now

Our family made our normal Sunday visit with my parents today. Honestly, I wasn’t planning on going since I only slept three hours last night. Most of my night and day were filled with nerve pain and great anxiety. I found myself in my bed feeling so overwhelmed. Then, I thought about my dad’s condition. […]

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Gotta Keep Praying

Here I am again dealing with another heart pounding moment. My nerve condition often makes me have to sit up in bed. Every time I try laying down my heart feels like it’s beating outside of my chest. My anxiety then kicks into a much higher gear. Fortunately, I’m a veteran at dealing with these […]

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Don’t Waste Your Pain

Less than 30 minutes ago I shared about my struggle. This meant I had to get over my pride. This meant I had to be obedient in saying what God put on my heart. He has always compelled me to write in the eye of the pain. To praise Him in the storm not just […]

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Please Know

Please know that anything I ever share it’s not for self-pity. It’s in hopes that my faith journey encourages you on your journey. I don’t ever want to waste my God allowed pain. The greatest stuff I’ve ever seen has been through my pain. I thank God daily for every struggle along with every victory. […]

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God Can Rescue You Too

I’m sick of saying it, feeling it and having to fight through it. Once again I’m in the heat of a battle I’ve faced so many times. Feels like someone has set my entire nervous system on fire. This time for some reason I just can’t find the off switch. In fact, I have no […]

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140 Days and Counting

Sunday will make 140 days since any group has gathered inside the church I pastor. For our growing church body it has clearly been the safest decision. I believe I speak for most pastors when I say every week has been unprecedented. Churches in the south rarely ever close their doors for any reason. This […]

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All I Can Do Is Pray

This is the fourth night in a row my entire body has been hijacked with nerve pain. It is really hard to explain something that feels like you’ve got electricity constantly running throughout your body. I feel fried and weary in every way. I’ve done everything I know to do to feel better. At night […]

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Count Every Victory

It’s 3:30am and I’m wide awake. At least my nerves and pain are settled some at this moment. Had another rough night but didn’t have to take any Valium. I used my CBD oil under my tongue and eventually the strong neurological current within me settled down. This condition of mine is often merciless. No […]

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Down Not Hopeless

Well, I’ve not exactly been doing great with my nerve pain recently. Last week was very taxing on my mind, heart and body. However, after a very relaxing Saturday I really thought I was doing good. Then, that Saturday night brought another hurricane experience. After plenty of sleep it seemed the worst was behind me. […]

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Understanding Chronic Pain

This is for those trying to understand the battle of chronic pain. First, let’s begin by giving you a very clear definition. Chronic pain is pain persisting for a long time or constantly recurring. Honestly, it’s not something that ever really goes away. You just don’t always feel it the same depending upon the moment, […]

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No More PB&J For Me

Maybe you do or maybe you don’t like peanut butter and jelly toast. I have always loved it with a big glass of milk. But, for the past year I’ve pretty much stayed away from it due to the sugar intake and my chronic pain issues. I also rarely drink regular milk as I’ve discovered […]

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So Thankful To God

Been laying here not able to sleep. That’s when it hit me just how bad things used to be. Suddenly my mind was flooded by images of the past. Back when pain was all I saw and hope was fading. Every day felt like a year and going to sleep was my favorite part of […]

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My Hope Is Renewed

Well, I just finished up another seemingly never ending day. However, God took me through it despite my depleted strength. I find that every time I think I’m going to collapse God catches me. As you’ve read this has been a very challenging week of ministry for me. But, there are always going to be […]

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Hard Habit To Break

Another day and another hard lesson learned. My heartbeat is finally slowing down and my nerves are certainly shot. As I sit here waiting on my meds to kick in all I can do is breathe in and breathe out prayer. This time last week I was so relaxed while on family vacation. Now, I […]

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Trust and Obey

My body is extremely exhausted. I’ve been seeking to do way too much over the past 48 hours. Especially with some of my health battles. Ministry has never been busier and people have never been so broken. For me it’s very hard to find the shut off valve. Especially when you really care about others […]

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When Anxiety Attacks

Prior to my nerve damage I never dealt with anything major in my own personal life. I was always very healthy and never took any medications. I was able to handle heavy loads of ministry. Sometimes I would deal with 25-30 crisis situations weekly. There were times when I preached 3 funerals in one week. […]

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Things I Must Do Daily

For those dealing with ongoing chronic pain issues. There are certain things we have to do daily. At least we need to do them in order to live our best life now. It takes awhile to learn how to live your new normal. While I’m way better than a year ago here are some things […]

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New Day, Same Mercy

After a very, very rough night. I’m feeling much better today. Once I ever settled down from last night’s meltdown. I slept at least 7 hours or more. Man those tough moments always take me by surprise. But, I’m very grateful for the life that pain gives me. One, it’s hard to take for granted […]

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He Is Always There

I’ve been attempting to sleep for nearly 4 hours. My body is exhausted and my night time meds should’ve long ago kicked in. I’m definitely certain my body has been affected by food I’ve eaten the past few days. However, I really didn’t see this panic attack coming my way. It’s the type that forces […]

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Its Been A Bumpy Landing

I just finished a wonderful 6 nights and 7 days away from reality with my family. In most every respect I was disconnected from normal life for me. I only checked my phone occasionally for any urgent messages. I never looked once at a computer. Outside of my own personal bible reading I didn’t do […]

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My Opinion About COVID-19

I realize we all have different opinions concerning these times. I don’t believe any of us are fully right or wrong. Mainly because we only know what we know. No, we can’t control all the chaos or the spreading of COVID-19. However, we all can choose to take necessary and thoughtful precautions. I still remember […]

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God We Need Ramps Again

Today, my dad saw his cancer doctor. He was scheduled for surgery tomorrow. This surgery was supposed to help with his back pain. However, it turns out that no surgery can stop dad’s present pain. Instead, dad’s greatest pain is related to the cancer creating havoc in his very bones. Sadly, dad didn’t get the […]

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Pain Is Unpredictable

Earlier my entire family of 6 went to visit my parents. Supper was great and we certainly shared some laughs with mom. I say mom because dad’s pain has gotten the best of him recently. All he can do is proactively try to keep his pain contained. Even then he knows it can sneak up […]

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The Anchor Holds

It has been a very quiet July 4th. My aching body kept me in the bed most of the day. My pain has been bearable. I just didn’t have the strength to get out much. Plus, my brother in law shot fireworks for us the night before. Earlier, I did eat a 8oz sirloin steak, […]

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Gotta Shake Off The Rust

For many of us with physical struggles we always have to limit our physical activity. However, this quarantine season limited most of us too much. Sometimes it’s a good thing to have to walk somewhere. Sitting around even more than usual can lead to your body feeling mighty rusty. Next thing you know your body […]

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God Is Using My Pain Again

I’m currently waiting on my body to quit aching so I can get some much needed sleep. I’m not doing terrible, but more like my past normal. Normal for me is having enough pain to keep me uncomfortable no matter what I’m doing. It doesn’t matter whether I’m sitting still or laying down. There is […]

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God Doesn’t Waste Pain

Just finishing up a very long day. I’ve not had a break all day. The good news is God keeps giving me the strength and discernment needed. My pain and discomfort have been minimal. My health has allowed me to help many others struggling way more than me. In many ways, I believe feeling useful […]

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God Has Got This

Somehow I’m right back on this intense faith walking journey. One minute I’m fine and the next my nervous system goes haywire. All I can do is lay on my side, take deep breaths, and ask God for comfort. Sure, it’s something I’ve experienced many times, but you never get used to it. My body […]

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I Feel It In The Air

We are about to complete the 15th straight week of COVID-19 madness. It really does feel like the world shutdown 105 days ago. Sure life goes on, but it definitely does not feel normal. Some feel the need to wear masks and social distance. Others think this entire virus is nothing to be feared. In […]

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The Best Father’s Day Ever

There’s never been a Father’s Day I’ve not been grateful for my dad. However, this year is different than all the rest. Everything changed after our long ride to the hospital that December night. I remember thinking on the way you certainly looked very sick. Then, I was blown away hours later to hear that […]

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You’re Still In His Hands

This has certainly been my most physically miserable week in quite some time. Just like it used to be in the past the nights are usually the worse. Seems anytime the pain gets on top of you. It’s really hard for you to get back on top of it. Nights like this I can almost […]

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Pain, Perspective, & Purpose

Most people who say their nerves are fried usually only mean they are stressed to the max. When I say the same thing I mean it literally. I believe if someone opened me up they wouldn’t believe their eyes. My interior nerves would resemble an electrical box full of twisted wires. I really don’t need […]

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I Can Still Relate

Usually at least one night every week it happens. Everything seems to be okay and then it’s not. Suddenly my body just caves in once again. It’s like somebody floods my entire body with electricity. My feet, legs, hands, chest and even my face won’t quit vibrating. Unfortunately, I can’t always tell you what ignites […]

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Are You Living to End Racism?

Wait a minute…please don’t answer that question so fast. I need to further explain what I mean. I didn’t ask whether you think you’re a racist. I asked are you living in such a way that counters racism? Meaning, are you just protesting the issue or living in a way that helps towards fixing the […]

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DEAR BELIEVER: Please Do Your Part

Folks it doesn’t take a rocket scientist to recognize that we are in troubled times. People of all backgrounds, races, and perspectives are freaking out. Please before you just identify the problems. Please make sure that you aren’t part of the problem. I say this while continually making constant evaluation of myself. If you call […]

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Dear Class Of 2020

I’m sorry your senior year came to such an abrupt ending. I know you had no idea that mid-march would be your last day of school. I’m sorry you missed precious senior moments with your friends. I’m sorry that even your graduation day has been very unpredictable. There’s no doubt we will all remember what […]

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What The World Needs Now

Many reading this right now are beyond frazzled. You keep watching the news or the next FB post. None of it makes sense to you. You want to stop the madness and you want everybody to quit going crazy. If only everyone could see through your eyes of reasoning all would be right in the […]

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We’re Not Just Fishing

Many will see this picture and think what’s the big deal. Well, the guy fishing in this boat with me today is my 18 year old son Joel. He and I used to go fishing together all the time. He and I both loved getting in that John boat and floating down the river. Until […]

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How Do You Process Things?

When it comes to unwinding from a long day we’re all different. Some of us like to be left alone and others like a hand to hold. Some of us don’t want to say one word and others can’t say enough words. Some of us hold all our emotions inside and others just let their […]

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My Daily Battle

By now, most should realize how little I speak about my pain compared to the past. Honestly, I try not to feed it or focus on it. Of course, it still stares me in the face daily. From the moment I wake up to the moment I lay down I feel it. There is rarely […]

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This Virus Is Getting Old

If we’re honest, we’ve all been highly impacted by this Coronavirus. To a degree we feel like we’ve been put on permanent house arrest. Sure, the first couple weeks were not that bad. However, we’re on the seventh week of seeing the same old faces and having no clear end in sight. Let’s be real, […]

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Everyone Should Be Awake Now

We’re all still shaking our heads in disbelief. This season feels much like we’re all on house arrest. Sure, things could always get worse. But, right now we all feel stuck. Most decisions concerning the outside world appear out of our hands. In the meantime, life just keeps on going. We still have to pay […]

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Only In The Storm

If we’re honest, the only time God has our absolute full attention is in the storm. When we totally feel we’re at His mercy. When we totally feel out of control. When we know the only way forward is by faith. When the only thing bigger than the storm in front of us is the […]

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After The Storm

Last night, I was unexpectedly tortured by nerve pain God has been keeping calm for months. Unfortunately, it’s been very hard to stick to my normally strict diet during this quarantine season. My body lit up within like someone had started a forest fire inside of me. I can’t adequately explain what I felt for […]

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The Dam Broke

The pain running throughout my body is totally debilitating. You would think a dam gave way allowing all my pain to flood back into me. Obviously, something not good for me has gotten into my system. I’ve not had pain like this in what feels like forever. Every part of my body is aching and […]

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My Life Feels Upside Down

Most of us have been thrown totally out of our normal routines. Our days and nights have felt upside down forever. Like someone embracing a new work shift. This season of chaos has forced us to embrace a totally new way of life. All we can do is adjust and make the most of our […]

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His Power In My Weakness

Today has been a very painful day. You would think I had 3 or 4 broken ribs on my right side. The pain can feel crippling with whatever is torn inside. One minute you’re nauseous and the next minute you feel like crying. I’m finally able to swallow another healing season. Only God knows how […]

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Back In The Pain Chamber

Well, I know it’s been quite a while since I’ve written anything about my pain. That’s been the case for a few different reasons. One, I really have experienced much better good days than bad pain wise. Two, since this pandemic started I’ve never been busier as a minister. Three, I really try not to […]

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Dear Control Freak

You would think by now you would know better. That no matter how hard you try there will be no perfect days. In fact, some days you will fall short a thousand times. I’m not trying to be pessimistic. I’m just trying to help you see these clear human facts. Now, I appreciate your great […]

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5 Reasons I Love This Season

These are troubling times for many. I could list a hundred reasons why that is truly the case. Even still there’s always good things to celebrate even in the valley. Depending on your viewpoint right now you might disagree with me. But, I can tell you five things that are really good about this never […]

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Seek Him Now

This past Monday before 5am God woke me up. I was still very tired and could’ve easily gone back to sleep. However, I couldn’t with all God was flooding to my heart. It was only the second time ever that God spoke to me so clearly in a dream. He literally told me everything I […]

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Living In Uncertain Days

Right now, most of us are totally out of our comfort zone. Yesterday’s normal feels long gone. Kids can’t go to school, businesses can’t stay open and even churches can’t gather together. Everyday makes us feel like we’ve been thrown into a prison of sorts. Especially when we’ve been ordered not to leave our home […]

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When Will I See You Again?

At the present time it’s only been two weeks. In my life, it feels like two years. This was my second Sunday in a row preaching to only a camera and empty seats. Sure, I can see God at work in the midst of this pandemic. In fact, I’m certain God is doing even more […]

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The Time Is Now

I’ve not been writing like I have in the past. Now, I feel the need to process the heaviness all around me. In fact, who am I kidding. There are plenty of alarms going off within me. We’re all somewhere we’ve never been before. Honestly, you would think the sky is falling down. As a […]

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The Anxiety Level Is High

Day by day this Coronavirus is changing our usual way of life. Kids are no longer in school. Young families are simply surviving and trying to adjust. Older adults and others with weaker immune systems aren’t sure what they can do without being at a major risk. Businesses, schools, restaurants, and even churches are having […]

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Sleep Where Are You?

For nearly two weeks I’ve not been able to sleep like I once could for so long. My body has proven in the past that I typically need at least 8 hours of nightly rest for my body to function well. I’ve been averaging maybe 6 hours of daily sleep. Even that sleep has been […]

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Sometimes God Closes Doors

Right now most of our culture is in total disbelief. We hear nonstop news of this Coronavirus threat. Cancellations are happening every hour. Sporting events, schools and even churches are being shut down. This is a historic season that Americans won’t soon forget. Yet, sometimes God needs to close certain doors.  Maybe God needed us […]

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Plenty Of Reasons To Pray

This week has seemed in many respects like a bad dream. Far beyond my own body surprising me with much unwanted pain. I feel like the entire world around me is in panic mode. Who knows how many more places will be shutdown soon as the world stares at the threat of this Coronavirus. Even […]

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Need Your Prayers Again

Written: March 12th Another difficult day in the books. This is not the kind of week I expected. In fact, I hoped that I would never feel this way again. Then, seemingly out of nowhere I find myself in this puddle of pain and distress. All I’m praying now is for this storm to pass. […]

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Clueless But Confident

Written: March 11th Well, I’ve had a few rough days physically speaking. It’s been quite awhile since I’ve felt so clueless. Once again something has disrupted my entire body. This time I can’t tell you whether it’s my diet or some other contaminating component. All I know is I once again feel miserable and on […]

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God Will Reward You

We live in a world that is used to living on two different planets. Sometimes we socialize on earth. Most today primarily socialize on the internet. Yes, technology has made it possible for us to be connected to the entire world at once. Technology has also overwhelmed and distracted us in many ways. To counter […]

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The Struggle Is Real

Just hours ago I would’ve said I’m doing great considering. I was and still am very grateful for the blessings in my life. However, I don’t think I’ve gone an entire day all week without the air being knocked out of my sails. It never feels good. Nor is it easy to just get over […]

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Wake Up Sleeper

Well, last night was pretty rough. But I ended up getting nearly 10 hours of sleep with the help of medications. Anytime my body crashes it’s like recovering from some internal seizure. My entire body just aches all over and demands rest to recoup. Once I got that much needed rest I felt like a […]

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I Just Have To Remember

I’ve been at this point what seems like a thousand times. Oh how tough it is to keep eating different than most people all the time. I’ve not eaten quite as strictly for nearly a week. Today, it’s just finally caught up to me. My neuropathy has been back to running from my feet to […]

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Gotta Stay Prepared

Preaching on Sundays is never something I take lightly. I prayerfully prepare all week to the best of my ability. I ask God to direct my every thought. To give me the message He would have communicated. Then, I ask God to help me share it with great clarity, power, truth, and grace. Being a […]

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A Total Setup By God

It’s been over 9 hours since I heard the news. Since God showed up and showed out on my dad’s behalf. I’m still wondering when I’m gonna wake up from this dream. No matter when I think of what God has done. I just keep shaking my head. I’ve never felt more awe struck and […]

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I’ve Seen Enough To Pray More

I’ve decided I must write this while I’m at my highest point of confident faith. I’ve seen a lot the past 5 years alone. I’ve seen God resurrect a little boy who was sure to leave this earth. I’ve seen God restore my health, life and ministry. Now, I’ve seen God take the prayers of […]

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I CANNOT BELIEVE IT !!!

I just got a phone call from my mom. She was very hard to understand due to her intense crying. My heart dropped as the only words I could understand at first were “Your Daddy.” As her voice got clearer I couldn’t believe what I was hearing. Could this really be true! They had just […]

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My Daddy Made It

Today marked exactly 50 days since we discovered my dad is fighting cancer. I would say that was the exact day my entire life perspective drastically changed. So often we think we’ve got forever on this earth. Then something exposes our humanity and the brevity of life. All things considered dad is doing the best […]

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Best I’ve Felt In 5 Years

It’s been a long week full of discovery. This past Tuesday I spent all day getting allergy testing. I’ve waited for this appointment for nearly four months. Anxiously I’ve wondered what allergies might be triggering my nerve pain. After 25 shots in the arm I finally left with some answers. First, it was discovered that […]

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Some Good News About Dad

Haven’t updated you guys lately concerning my dad. His pain and nausea have been much more under control in recent days. His doctor gave him a two week break from his chemo injections. Mainly so his body could get some much needed rest. However, he will get another infusion tomorrow. Overall, I can sense my […]

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Learning From A Boy

Today, I had the joy of visiting with my dad. He was much more comfortable than many past visits. They decided a week ago that his body needed some rest from his chemotherapy injections. However, the reality of his condition is beginning to take it’s toll on him and mom. The past six weeks have […]

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You Can’t Shut It Off

Been a lot on my mind all day long. Situations, people, problems, potential problems, and just an overall heaviness. Seems to be in the air everywhere I turn right now. Of course, I’m trying to be optimistic concerning all of it. Even still I wish I could find a shut off switch. I know many […]

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I Hate Chronic Pain

Both my college boys came home this weekend. So, I attempted to play Monopoly with them tonight. Less than 1 1/2 hours later I’m just a puddle of pain. How can I go from feeling so good to so bad that quickly? This kind of experience always leaves me shaking my head. Finally, I just […]

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God Turned Things Around

This long day has been full of moments worth celebrating. These moments involve my church, my dad and my health. I believe all three are trending in a much healthier direction. Let me briefly explain myself. One, it was a breath of fresh air to attend the church I pastor. I walked through the doors […]

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Renewed Strength Found

We were blessed to go out to eat with my parents tonight. It was so good to see dad out of the house. Even better it was great to see dad looking somewhat comfortable. After some new pain meds he was able to rest a few hours. That rest gave him just the lift he […]

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Confession Is Healing

Some may think I share too much of my feelings. However, as most people do there are lots of things I hold back too. Not everything is meant to speak out loud. Not everything is meant to be heard by everyone. So, it’s not about telling everything to everyone. However, I have learned that confession […]

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So Much On My Mind

Right now, I feel I could write a book. Not about the past, but just expressing my present feelings. My heart and body have really been hurting. My wife said something that was pretty profound. She said “you know the two are connected.” Yes, I know that sounds so silly. However, there’s no denying my […]

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Keep Praying For My Dad

My dad is once again in a whole lot of discomfort. I hate to see him or hear him crying. However, that’s what makes me know the pain is so great. We are seeking to trust the Lord with every step. We’re praying for God to bring healing to his body. His kidneys are still […]

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Struggles In Your Backyard

I used to say this all the time. I’m realizing more and more this statement is so true. Things are always different when it’s happening in your backyard. When the struggle belongs to you, a family member or a close friend. Otherwise it’s just someone you’re prayer for from a distance. Praying for someone struggling […]

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Not Tomorrow Satan

LWell, I’ve had another great day along with a very tough night. My nerve pain has been buzzing throughout my body the past 5 hours. Like always there’s so many factors that contributed. Of course, I’m not shocked anymore. I am always surprised by how bad it actually feels. I do live with a certain […]

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Still Learning Balance

Laying here on my side waiting on my body to settle down. I’m still not used to putting myself to bed early like an old man. Time keeps proving it’s my new normal. I keep showing it takes time learning to live with a new balance. I guess we’re always kinda seeking our past way […]

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Keep Them Coming Please

It’s been a 31 day roller coaster ride. Most days we’ve had more questions than answers. Of course, you hope and pray for divine intervention. Even still, each day brings many doubts. I could tell in dad’s eyes he knew his cancer was aggressive. All he needed to do was go by the chaos abounding […]

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Gotta Give You Up

Dad it’s becoming a normal routine. I wake up several times throughout each night with you heavy on my mind. Of course, I’m concerned about all that is going on with you. I go to bed with you heavy on my mind. I wake up each day with you heavy on my mind. Deep down […]

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Let God Use It

Laying here just asking God to settle my mind, heart and body. The past 24 hours have been full of much needed pain relief. Overall, my body seems to be back on track. I rested well last night. I hope to do so tonight. My body is still sore from the previous days of pain. […]

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Held By God

The past few days I’ve had some really rough moments. Pain I used to have came flooding back into my body. My wife can testify that it sends me into orbit. I’m talking the kinda pain that can’t leave you in your right mind. It’s like being trapped in misery you can’t stop. All you […]

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Hide Me Lord

Earlier this afternoon things seemed to be turning around. I finally got some quality sleep. My overall pain had gone down considerably. After a very long, uncomfortable night. I was so grateful for the relief. Yet, here I am again back in middle of the pain. This time I’m feeling a bit more overwhelmed. One, […]

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Makes Sense Now

Last night I could not understand why I felt so bad. Like way worse than I’ve felt anytime recently. I had eaten a few things not on my diet plan. But, nothing that made me tumble so quickly in recent days. Well, I’m hoping I found the answer earlier. Around 2am this morning I took […]

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Looking Back Helps

Even after hours in the tub and a lot of water digested. My hands and feet are itching. That old familiar surgical spot is aching constantly. There doesn’t appear to be any quick fix in sight. A little surprised the meds I took hours ago don’t have me totally comfortable. Now, I’m not lying here […]

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Gotta Stay Disciplined

Lots going on the past few weeks towards taking my body down. Busyness, stress, less sleep, and hardly any exercise in forever. However, the biggest issue has once again been a change in my diet. Of course, there’s no such thing as eating perfect. I did consistently eat extremely clean and healthy for nearly 80 […]

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Pray About Everything

Well, my dad looked a lot better tonight. At least, compared to the past several weeks. The circles under his eyes give away his sleepless nights. His constant agitation gives away his discomfort. But, sometimes things can only get better. Overall, I see increased strength and his appetite has improved. Probably the biggest reason for […]

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Tired Of Playing Games

On March 4th I will turn 45 years old. I have to say those years have flown by. Seems like yesterday I was still in grade school. Most of my school years I was best known as a class clown. Yet, more than ever I’m tired of playing games. It’s time to rise up. To […]

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Learning To Fight Differently

Dad preached again this Sunday. Even though he could have collapsed any moment. I can totally relate to the calling he feels within him. I’ve had countless Sundays I had no business getting out of my bed. Still God put a fire in my bones compelling me to share His words of hope with others. […]

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A Preacher’s Saturday Night

I’ve now been in the ministry for 27 years. I spent 11 years as a student minister and associate. The past 16 years I’ve been a senior pastor. Honestly, my Saturday nights have never been normal as a minister. But, since becoming a senior pastor things have drastically changed. Now, in many ways a pastor […]

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So Glad To Fight

Tonight was a huge rarity for me. Not only did I stay awake past midnight. I enjoyed every minute of it. I sat down for hours at our dining room table. I barely had any pain. There I enjoyed playing two games of monopoly with my boys. It really did feel like we went back […]

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Been A Long Time

Well, it’s certainly been awhile since I’ve been this way. Nerve pain running throughout my body. Pain in my lower back just wreaking havoc on me. My hands and feet are constantly itching. All of this because the pain has gotten on top of me. I guess it was just a matter of time. This […]

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Faith Under Fire

This past week has been really tough. Both physically and emotionally I feel drained. God has been doing a lot of really awesome things. Yet, my emotions keep taking me for a ride. I’ve had a lot on my plate and I’ve not slept well all week. My legs are heavy and so is my […]

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The Humble Pie Club

It’s been 20 days since my dad found out he has advanced Multiple Myeloma Cancer. It’s taken at least half that time for reality to move from our heads to our hearts. At first you just want to fall apart when you see someone you love struggling so much. Then, you catch your breath and […]

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Maybe It’s Just Me

We all know this life is full of ups and downs. One moment you feel on top of things. The next minute things feel on top of you. Presently it just feels like there’s a dark cloud hovering over this world. Maybe it’s just what I’m feeling in my soul. Now, I don’t think things […]

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Before You Look Ahead

It’s that time of year again. A time that most of us think about new beginnings and resolutions. A time we aim for old and new targets on the wall. We hope and pray this new year is full of God’s blessings. Honestly, I believe we should be looking forward with great expectations. However, there’s […]

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Always Hope In Christ

Tomorrow will be 2 weeks since my dad discovered he has cancer. Even still today was a good day. His kidneys have improved a little. His pain has become a little more manageable. The eye of the tiger is back in his eyes. Regardless of this disease’s progression. His doctor really feels confident in their […]

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Bring On 2020

Well, I definitely came into the New Year sick. This past Monday morning I went to the doctor. Seems I have some kind of viral infection. My throat has been killing me. My head has been beyond stuffy. I’ve struggled to do much. Even still I’m coming into this new year feeling stronger than ever. […]

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Considering A Diet Change?

Sixty days ago I resolved in my heart to start eating clean. For me this has meant eating only vegetables, fruits, nuts, grilled lean meats and beans. Yep, I had to wave goodbye to sugar, caffeine, and lots of other tasty things. Rarely have I eaten anything outside of these lines. The one day I […]

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I Should Not Be Surprised

It’s been several weeks since my nervous system last crashed. Lord knows I’ve been doing all I can to eat right and live right with my condition. However, Christmas Eve and Christmas Day I totally abandoned my daily diet. I knew in my heart there would be some pain to follow. Had no idea that […]

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Sad But Glad Christmas

Well, it’s been a very blurry past five days. The blurriness began after finding out my dad is battling some very serious health issues. Since then our family has just been walking through this valley together. My dad is still in the hospital and only time tell when he gets to go home. Anyone knows […]

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Partly Cloudy And Cold

Based on stats alone it was a much better day on the books. My day began after 9 hours of sleep. Then, I ate all the foods I should and stayed away from those I shouldn’t. Overall, I was only active for a little over six hours. And, most of that was spent sitting down […]

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The Stats Do Matter

My body is definitely in need of some quality rest. The last four days straight have been very fruitful. However, they have been way too busy and long. I don’t have to look long at my Fitbit stats to recognize the problems. The past has proven the stats do matter. Now, I’m been doing great […]

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Celebrate The Blessings

Finally, I’m home from a very physically and emotionally draining day. Anytime, I’m out of the house for nearly 12 hours I’m asking for increased pain. But, this wasn’t one of those days I could just stay in the bed. I needed to get up and show up. I’ve already missed too many big moments […]

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Don’t Give Up On God

I’m still breathing in my new normal. They say if God brings you to it. Then, surely God will take you through it. Well, that’s exactly what I experienced firsthand. I truly had to see it to believe it. Honestly, I didn’t always see things working out in any positive way. I was prepared to […]

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Life After My Shot

I’ve now been on ice half of the day. My shot this morning went as smoothly as possible. In fact, it was the least painful procedure I can recall. I’ve just gotta keep icing often and resting properly. It’s not easy to stay lying down. But, I know the next 48 hours I have to […]

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Keep Walking By Faith

Been a long and fruitful day. I’m so grateful God keeps giving me opportunity to be a blessing. My stamina, focus and ability to minister keep growing daily. Things have been very busy lately. Driving any distance continues to be a challenge. These are just a few things I have to work around and learn […]

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God Uses Genuine Faith Walkers

I want to ask everyone to pray for my Uncle Mitch. Tonight he had to be admitted into Trident hospital due to extreme pain. The kind of pain you cannot hide even if you aim to mask it. CT scan revealed there is definite life threatening concerns. But, no clear answers as to what he’s […]

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40 Days 40 Nights Of Fasting

Maybe I need to get myself a trophy or a small ribbon. All I know is the last 40 days and nights have felt like 40 years. I’ve now gone 40 days straight eating with a discipline only God could give me. This has all been motivated most by wanting to live in much less […]

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Great Is Thy Faithfulness

God has proven faithful once again. He not only got me through both services. He kept my mind focused on the task at hand. It’s awfully hard to override fogginess when you can’t have caffeine or sugar. Still somehow I was able to keep myself out of God’s way this morning. And, I feel much […]

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Take My Hand Lord

For the first time in a month I’m not feeling well on a Saturday night. I can’t put my finger on exactly what I can do. All I know is nerve pain is running throughout my body like electricity. Over the past few years this is what I felt every single Saturday night. Then, I […]

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Restore My Joy Lord

Sitting here just taking one deep breath at a time. Honestly, I’ve got a lot of settling down to do. Physically, emotionally, mentally, socially and spiritually. I need to be still and know God is in control. My overall pain is under control presently. The angry nerves throughout my body just won’t quit going crazy. […]

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Let’s Not Repeat This

Written 9pm 12/6/19 Here I am 13 hours later still hurting very badly. In fact, it feels like someone released fire ants to run loose throughout my entire body. No, I’m not exaggerating about how I feel right now. The misery just hasn’t gotten out of my system. Today’s been one of those days I […]

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Painful But Preventable

Written 1:15pm Today The only thing good about this day is at least I have answers. Pretty much I have to read the ingredients of EVERYTHING so closely. I can’t eat anything partially normal compared to others. Anything with sugar in it pounds my body so quickly. Grams of sugar add up so quickly even […]

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Why I Write A Lot Less

I used to literally write day and night about my pain. It wasn’t something I just talked about. Pain was something I was continually living and breathing. In fact, it had me really, really down for so long. Therefore, I had to find a way for God to use it to encourage others. Somehow it […]

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Just 35 Days Later

In just a little over a month my eyes have been opened big. Who knew that diet alone could play such a big role in drastically reducing my chronic pain. I’m not talking about because of any weight loss. I had already lost 30 pounds prior to starting this elimination diet. Even after maintaining my […]

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Total God-Made Day

Before my day even started I was blessed with nearly 9 hours of sleep. I did have to take some muscle relaxers, but I woke up very refreshed. After eating some fruit I headed out the door. Fortunately, a friend was able to drive me to Columbia,SC to watch my favorite college football team’s big […]

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Thanks For Answers & Perspective

Earlier I felt deeply the crippling pain that once owned my body. In the past, things would have just kept spiraling downhill. My heart would keep racing. My body kept aching and I would just lay there feeling anxious and hopeless. Those days are officially behind me as I’ve seen the light. I now know […]

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Shipwrecked Again

I can’t believe I’m saying this again. My entire body is aching terribly and I’m so nauseous. I’m barely able to handle even the simplest conversation. My nerves are just a wreck. The only possible inflammatory food I’ve had is sugar free cool whip. Between last night and today I easily ate half of that […]

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Pain & Hunger Don’t Mix

Because of much tougher seasons I’m pretty used to pain. I truly can’t remember waking up and not aching in some significant way. However, I feel like food can make one just as crazy. I guess you could say it was the one thing I could still control. Before, I could wake up and eat […]

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Praise Report After Thanksgiving

#1 I fell asleep quickly last night and slept over 7 hours with great comfort. #2 I woke up able to focus and finish this Sunday’s sermon. #3. My pain level has been manageable all morning as I’m just very sore from the past week. #4. I’m still only 5 ‘11 weighing in at 169.2 […]

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I Made It Through Thanksgiving

Been a long, but blessed day with family. We’ve literally been gone since noon and should be home before 11pm. I didn’t start out this day feeling great. But, somehow I’ve survived the day without totally collapsing. My chronic pain has shown it’s ugly head in many ways. Sadly, because I look so healthy on […]

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Thank You God

Thanks for your many prayers. I’ve gotten my breakthrough once again. I just finished sleeping almost 4 hours once the meds and prayers kicked in. Just gonna have to take at least one muscle relaxer much earlier each night. That is until I get back on top of things. My recent days have been alright, […]

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Just Ask For Prayer

I’m laying here just drowning in pain. My entire body is aching and my legs are throbbing so much. Seems it’s actually gotten worse instead of better. Even after a muscle relaxer and muscle rub the fire just won’t die. There’s definitely been some extra anxiety associated with this unexpected, escalated pain. Why am I […]

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Lots To Swallow Daily

My mind and heart are gradually calming down. I’m laying in bed on my side. Presently this is my only possible position for some comfort. Right now, I can’t lay on my back, sit up or stand without discomfort. My nights continue to make me feel trapped inside of my own body. Anytime I’m forced […]

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I Can Eat Whatever I Want

They say it takes at least 6 weeks to establish a new habit. Well, I’m exactly 4 weeks into this healthy eating lifestyle. And, I feel it may take much longer for this way of eating to feel like a true way of life. Especially with Thanksgiving and Christmas both hitting me over the next […]

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Gotta Keep Believing

Earlier I was out of the house doing a few things. My normal 2pm medicine alarm went off as usual. So, I reached in my backpack to get my medicine. It was then I realized everything was in there except for ibuprofen. I had refilled my weekly medicine container this morning. Somehow, I forgot to […]

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God Is My Strength

One thing I hate about chronic pain is it’s never fully behind you. Even when you’re having a great day you know any moment could humble you quickly. Thank God I got over 7 hours sleep last night and I didn’t have to take a muscle relaxer. Maybe I should have considering my pain was […]

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Pain, Pain Go Away

The last several nights have not been great to me. Every evening that old familiar pain keeps throbbing in my lower back. It melts me down so quickly. Funny how these intense pain moments make you feel like nothing much has changed. When I know good and well I’m not like where I used to […]

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A Day To Just Breathe

There’s never a day I put my Christianity in the closet. I stay ready, open and willing for whatever God leads me to do. Honestly, this has been my way of life for over 26 years of ministry. However, time brings perspective and wisdom leads to change. Therefore, I’ve drawn a line in the sand. […]

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Something Got In My System

Friday night while still out of town in Myrtle Beach, SC. I stopped and ate supper at a place called the Healthy Living Cafe. While the food I ate was great and most of it was very healthy. I’m pretty certain that the non-gluten oatmeal cup was filled with a little more than just organic […]

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Come To Me Child

Headed to bed early tonight. I got to bed way too late last night and got very little sleep. Now, after a day of driving several hours back home my body is exhausted. I’ve been away the past five nights and six days from my family. God laid it on my heart to just get […]

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My Present Diet

For my present diet I’m simply doing what many call the “Elimination Diet.” Because my first goal was to make sure I eliminated things that have proven to most likely be inflammatory or create further health issues. My second goal was to make sure I didn’t just starve my body of bad stuff. But, I […]

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To Whom It May Concern

I think it’s very important to clarify that my new diet has not miraculously healed me. I still live a recovery lifestyle morning, day and night. I still watch how much I sleep, exercise, work, and now everything I eat and drink. It’s definitely not a walk in the park. I still deal with daily […]

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Living My Best Life Now

Grilled Tuna with brown rice, quinoa, mixed veggies, & broccoli. Organic bananas, carrots, raisins, pecans, honey, oatmeal cups made with unsweetened almond milk. 23 Days of feeding myself nothing but healthy stuff. I’ve dropped 4 medications and reduced 2 others. Will turn 45 in four months, but feeling my best yet. I was 205lbs in […]

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Dear Mr or Mrs Not Okay

I’m in a season where God is rearranging my life. It’s obvious I can’t go back to living life as I once thought was normal. I’m now on a new journey towards true health. I’m aiming to be the healthiest I can be physically, emotionally, mentally, relationally, and spiritually. I realize there is no perfect […]

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I Needed A Big Healthy Steak

I’ve been out of town all week on a spiritual retreat. God put it very heavy on my heart that I just needed to get away. To breathe Him in and hear His voice clearly about my next steps forward. I’m used to needs constantly surrounding me and my body failing me. Therefore, I’ve been […]

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Hope Keeps Rising

I’m in such a season of undeniable and explainable breakthrough. Like a prisoner of war I feel God has set me free. Everything that the devil seemed to have taken from me. God has given it all back and more. I really believe I’m living my best life now and even better days are to […]

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1,522 Days Later I’m Shocked

Today, has been a day of recognizing all God has done and still is doing. Praise God, it’s been awhile since I religiously kept track of every day of my misery. Earlier I decided to look back and see just how long I’ve been on this roller coaster journey of pain. Yep, 1522 days ago […]

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16 Days Of Total Life Change

There’s no way to argue with such obvious results. This radical diet has literally changed my life. While it has definitely not been easy. It’s certainly working to reduce the inflammation and chaotic nerve pain inside of my body. In fact, I’ve never been so clear minded and optimistic during this entire 50 months of […]

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Gotta Keep Moving

Well, I’m finally in a very comfortable and consistent groove of eating healthy. I certainly wouldn’t be without a wife that will practically do anything to help me have the food prepared I need. She has always gone above and beyond to me my helpmate. I believe she can see that I’m committed to maximizing […]

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Observed While Eating Healthy

I’m now 34 pound less than I was just 11 months ago. Even more important I’m way healthier now than I was 11 months ago. Here are some things I’ve observed along my short journey of trying to eat healthier. 1. Most Are Clueless. Most are clueless as to what they are doing to their […]

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