Let Me Fight For You

Had a very rough night and early morning. Dealing with my condition is like riding a roller coaster. One minute I’m up and the next I’m turned upside down. One minute I don’t feel so bad. Then, my body feels paralyzed from head to toe in deep, deep pain.

Last night I got into bed feeling like I had just been beaten to a pulp. My wife had to help me take several extra medications. Everything within my body was vibrating in pain. My wife adjusted my spinal cord stimulator and I just sought to pray silently with each breath. Eventually I drifted off to my safest place called sleep.

I woke up this morning with an all too familiar piercing sensation running throughout my nerve wrecked body. I’m sitting here now just catching my breath from the aftermath. For me it’s like I’ve been in a major fight that evidently I lost. My nerves are extremely sensitive to everything when I reach this point. Thank God the eye of that storm has passed.

Now, my heart is still very settled. I’ve learned the storm won’t last forever. God has proven time and time again that He will calm the storm. Knowing this calms my heart every time. In these moments, I simply have to be still and let God be God. I’m learning more and more how to let God fight for me instead of me fighting with my condition.

“The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.” Exodus 14:14