Sometimes I Forget

You would think I’d be used to this by now. However, time proves that intense pain always disrupts your life. I’ve been battling some resurrected pain in my left side all week. It keeps feeling like it’s going away, but lingers just enough to keep me miserable.

This pain is in the same area that was bothering me several months ago. My last pain shot mixed with increased meds had been keeping it and my neuropathy drastically reduced. Now, it has reared it’s ugly head once more. Nights and laying down period have been a lot harder all week.

These times remind me quickly why I used to live in misery. Like, I remember thinking this is no way for anyone to live. Fortunately, God has blessed me with more good days than bad in recent years. Maybe, I just needed the reminder that God has been shielding me all along. Because, I definitely still have a very broken body.

God, forgive me for not continually giving you the thanks you deserve. Thanks God for my surgeries, stimulator, pain shots, medications and obvious grace in my life. Thanks for reminding me of all you’ve done to make my life bearable. It’s hard to lose heart when you’ve always given me the breakthroughs I’ve needed.

“Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.” 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18