One Day It Will Be Over
Having another one of those evenings where the pain has been rising and rising for hours. My lower back, hands, feet and face feel on fire. It knocked the wind clean out of me several hours ago. I wish the pain was only physical. However, what I’m feeling emotionally and mentally honestly feels worse.
For some reason my pain keeps sneaking up on me again. Out of nowhere it has suffocated me again. Nothing feels good and it’s really hard to find peace and joy. I’ve been fighting this battle with my prayers for hours. Yet, there just hasn’t been any let up.
Eight years of this kind of pain leaves me shaking my head. Shouldn’t I be used to it by now? Why can’t I just pick myself up knowing this will eventually cease? This kind of pain really does make life feel so unbearable. Satan seeks to flood your mind with so many unhealthy thoughts.
Lately, I just can’t seem to find the correct setting for my spinal stimulator. I will go get it readjusted as soon as time allows. I keep having to shut it down due to overstimulation. Then, I turn back on when the pain completely depletes me.
Only God knows why we have to suffer in many different ways on this earth. I’m so grateful for all God has done for me. I’m so grateful God has a purpose for every ounce of my struggles. I’m so glad I don’t have to be perfect or pretend like this is some walk in the park. In fact, I will admit this is definitely me holding back plenty of what I’m actually feeling or thinking.
All I know is you’re not alone in your pain. Our struggles may be different, but we all have crosses way too heavy to bear alone. God is with us and will continue to carry us forward. One day, all the pain will be no more for every true born again child of God.
“ He will wipe every tear from their eyes, and there will be no more death or sorrow or crying or pain. All these things are gone forever.” Revelation 21:4
Pastor Craig Crosby 
I understand completely. Pastor you are a strong man. I will keep you in my prayers. I would like to say that meeting you a few Years ago at the pain center. We shared stories and you prayed for me right there. Again thank you. That prayer prepared me mentally for what came next. I will share my story real soon with you.
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