I Can See Daylight

I finally got out of the house this evening. It was my first time out of the house going anywhere since Sunday. Everyday has been a battle and today was definitely no exception. I’ve had buzzing nerve pain all over my body most of the day. One of my boy’s birthday gathering inspired me finally get out of the house.

It did me so much good to feel normal. Just to eat a solid meal after pretty much running away from food the last few days. I’m still having to take some extra medications to get me through this rough patch. However, I can see light at the end of the tunnel.

When you’re pinned down with pain even a few days it can quickly overtake your body, strength, heart and mind. You have to look very hard to find positive momentum. You have to keep taking one courageous faith step at a time.

I’ve got my eating back under control. I’m trying to take strategic walks each day. I got out to my mom’s tonight. All of those things alone have been encouraging and empowering. I definitely have to keep tabs on my anxiety related to sudden, unexpected nerve pain surges. One of my keys is to get to bed as early as possible before things rip my heart out again. If I can get a good nights sleep tonight it will make a very big difference.

I’m still waiting on the opportunity to get my stimulator readjusted. Things are just not right with my settings anymore. Plus, it’s been 19 months since my last adjustment. I’ve had to cut my unit off and on everyday for the past five days. I know this can get back into rhythm soon. In the meantime, God is definitely flooding me with a lot of messages. God always speaks the deepest when we’re in the lowest valleys. God has definitely had my full attention. Praise God I keep seeing daylight. Continuing to pray for each of you walking through similar valleys.

“Even when I walk through the darkest valley, I will not be afraid, for you are close beside me. Your rod and your staff protect and comfort me.” Psalm 23:4