One of My Worst Nights Ever 🔥

Last night was definitely one of my absolute worst nights ever. Sometime between 12am and 2am is all I can truly reference. I thought I was just struggling to fall asleep. Next thing I know my entire body felt like someone lit it on fire from within. I remember desperately calling for my wife to come press on my legs and turn off my stimulator.

It appears that my stimulator finally reached an epic overload within my nervous system. Every part of my body felt like it was in flames that could not be extinguished. My wife did everything she could do to alleviate the pain in my legs and feet. All I could do was keep praying and hoping for my emergency Valium to settle my nerves asap. Eventually, I passed out asleep for the next four hours.

This morning I had to wake up early. I needed to look over my Sunday message notes and pray for God’s peace. My spinal stimulator had been off all night so the fire inside was finally out. However, my nerve pain that is typically covered was quickly returning into my body. I felt like I had to at least turn my unit back on the lowest setting possible and hope to get through both morning services.

By the time I even walked into church I could feel my nerves were about to crash. I went back to my church office so I could take some deep breaths and allow a few church leaders to pray over me. Their prayers finally hit the release button I needed. Tears began to flow and toxins began leaving my body. I felt like someone with a bad virus throwing up for the first time.

Next thing I knew it was time for me to be on stage to preach. I was able to come up on stage just in time while still trying to gather myself. I knew I needed to simply be honest that I had been suffocating in pain. However, as soon as I opened my mouth it became obvious there were still more tears to be shed. Somehow with God’s help I was able to gather myself and share the message God gave me.

After the first service I went back into my church office. My entire body was so exhausted. My nerves were so fried during the night that I could’ve slept upside down. I had no choice but to chug down a sugar free energy drink. I had some leaders cover me with prayer once again. Finally, it seemed the last batch of tears left my system.

You see, for me both my regular nerve pain and my spinal cord stimulator can chemically overload me once things build up. Then, the only true breakthrough possible is for me to cry out the chemical overload. There is no doubt in my mind that my stimulator overloaded me beyond what I thought even possible. Here is what I know now made things so catastrophic.

On Friday when I got my stimulator adjusted several things were done that I didn’t realize were done by my new technician. One, my unit was set to come on 30 times per hour whereas before it only came on 4 times per hour. Two, instead of my overall strength level being set at a 1 it was changed to an 11. Thirdly, my stimulator was reprogrammed to cover twice as much area as ever before. Here’s how to put this into perspective.

On my old setting my unit was set to come on only 96 times in 24 hours for 30 seconds. On my new setting it came on 210 times in just 7 hours and it was running a 11 levels higher then before covering twice as much area. Therefore, on Friday for 7 hours straight I had no idea that my nerves were being absolutely fried. Until, I literally felt like I was plugged into some electrical socket and quickly shut things off.

I am now much more relaxed knowing what actually happened. It will be addressed and it will ultimately get back on track. I’m still waiting on my adrenaline to settle so I can get some sleep. The nerves inside my legs and feet are still mildly vibrating. Hopefully, tomorrow they will get things adjusted correctly.

Mentally, this weekend brought me back to a few years ago. Remembering when all I could do was pray. Every Sunday I would fight to get through both services and cry in between services. God has definitely parted the Red Sea for me and given me back some quality of life. Maybe, I just needed to be reminded that my present health is nothing short of a miracle. Thanks so much for your continued prayers.

“I will remember the deeds of the LORD; yes, I will remember your miracles of long ago. I will consider all your works and meditate on all your mighty deeds.” Your ways, God, are holy. What god is as great as our God? You are the God who performs miracles; you display your power among the peoples.

With your mighty arm you redeemed your people, the descendants of Jacob and Joseph. The waters saw you, God, the waters saw you and writhed; the very depths were convulsed. The clouds poured down water, the heavens resounded with thunder; your arrows flashed back and forth.

Your thunder was heard in the whirlwind, your lightning lit up the world; the earth trembled and quaked. Your path led through the sea, your way through the mighty waters, though your footprints were not seen. You led your people like a flock by the hand of Moses and Aaron.” Psalm 77:11-20