When You Can’t Run Away

I can’t count how many times I’ve wished running away from my own body was possible. Lying here feeling like every nerve you have is on fire never feels good. Other than knocking yourself completely out with medication all you can do is pray. Severe chronic pain is something I don’t wish on anyone. I feel like a prisoner inside my own body most days.

Sadly, you reach a point that you really don’t want to talk about it anymore. You just want to be able to say everything is fine. You want to say all the pain is behind you. However, the extreme flares make it impossible for you to lie. So, you’re forced to acknowledge your struggle that tosses you around like a rag doll at times.

The only reason for my posts anymore is for others. I want you to know I understand how pain steals your confidence. I understand how pain makes you not feel like doing anything. I understand how pain can make you feel so isolated and hopeless.

Fortunately, I’ve learned that somehow God will take you through it. It may feel terrible right now and simply unbearable. Still His grace is sufficient and strength is enough. Even when things feel like you can’t take one more minute. God has a plan and will carry you forward to better days. Hang in there my friends! I definitely understand how chronic pain keeps you on your knees.

“When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.” Isaiah 43:2