Not Out The Woods Yet

Well, I’m not sure where I am right now in my pain journey. I definitely experienced significant relief initially from my steroid injections. However, just seven days later I’m shaking my head in disbelief. It appears there is still very significant muscles pulled in my lower back. Like it’s just pinned underneath the metal in my back.

This morning I had a funeral to preach. The moment I tried to get out of my car I could barely get up period. Fortunately, I was fine as long as I was standing straight up. However, bending forward feels like my lower back is broken. That feeling has only progressed as the day and night progressed.

I’ve taken a muscle relaxer every 8 hours the past 24 hours hoping to calm things down in my lower back. I’ve been icing my back as often as possible. Fortunately, everything else on my body is doing wonderful. My overall nerve pain is completely under control. Plus, despite my initial disappointment God has been stabilizing my heart and mind.

All I know is this is purposeful pain. God has allowed this for reasons I can see and not see. God doesn’t owe me an explanation. I just need to trust His good plans. Please pray God continues to guide my steps, calm those muscles, and use my pain. I plan to contact my pain doctor tomorrow.

“Let all that I am praise the Lord; with my whole heart, I will praise his holy name. Let all that I am praise the Lord; may I never forget the good things he does for me. He forgives all my sins and heals all my diseases. He redeems me from death and crowns me with love and tender mercies. He fills my life with good things.” Psalm 103:1-5