God Deliver Me Again

I believe most of us can identify with the following words. If it ain’t one thing it’s another. Unfortunately, that continues to be the same case with my health. The pain in my lower back has been bearable as long as I stay on a heating pad. My overall nerve pain has felt mostly under control. However, my dermatitis skin condition has gone absolutely crazy.   

All week I’ve been breaking out with painful red lines and splotches. For the most part it keeps attacking my hands and feet the most. I’ve been moisturizing my skin with lotion specifically for this condition. I’ve also been taking allergy medicine along with an antihistamine prescription. Nothing has been able to get it under control. 

Sadly, there has not been one main trigger that stands out. I have to limit my exposure with any water. Sweat can set things off and even the slightest bit of stress. Shampoo, soap, or detergent can affect things. Any elevated pain in my lower back can make everything run wild. 

This is one of those times that I’m absolutely clueless on how to stop this madness. Yesterday, I took a shower and afterwards my body was covered in bright red splotches. I get this stuff to settle down eventually, but it just won’t go away. 

I know I’m going through another major spiritual test. I’ve definitely been here many times before in the past. Honestly, the misery has been constant and the answers have been few. I’m just trying to recognize trigger points and will need to go back to my dermatologist. I would greatly appreciate all your prayers. I know God is going to give me a breakthrough soon. 

My hands continually feel boiling hot. Even when the rash looking spots fade away. I’ve been seeking God more than ever recently. The devil just keeps finding a window to distract and discourage me. God only knows what it feels like to live this way, while pastoring so many others. I will fully trust and follow God until the day I die. 

“Then the Lord asked Satan, “Have you noticed my servant Job? He is the finest man in all the earth. He is blameless—a man of complete integrity. He fears God and stays away from evil. And he has maintained his integrity, even though you urged me to harm him without cause.”

“Satan replied to the Lord, “Skin for skin! A man will give up everything he has to save his life. But reach out and take away his health, and he will surely curse you to your face!” “All right, do with him as you please,” the Lord said to Satan. “But spare his life.” 

So Satan left the Lord’s presence, and he struck Job with terrible boils from head to foot. Job scraped his skin with a piece of broken pottery as he sat among the ashes. 

His wife said to him, “Are you still trying to maintain your integrity? Curse God and die.” But Job replied, “You talk like a foolish woman. Should we accept only good things from the hand of God and never anything bad?” So in all this, Job said nothing wrong.”

(Job‬ ‭2‬:‭3-10‬)(NLT)