When the Pain is Insane 

I know I’m on the right track. I know I’m seeking God’s will. I know I’m doing everything possible to take care of this nerve wrecked body. But there are so many times this pain drives me absolutely insane. 

The last several hours alone have been as bad as ever. My entire skin from head to toe feels so miserable. I’ve done everything I could possibly do to prevent things from falling apart. Yet, tonight my nerve pain still did me like it’s done me so many times before. Left me kicking and screaming inside. 

It’s like someone has just lit a match inside me again. I run out of words to describe the misery I feel in these times. Just like all the times before you wonder how long this will go on. I wouldn’t wish this on anyone period. Even my hands broke out again tonight. 

God has to have a huge purpose for this pain. Yet, it’s still driving me in sane. God please keep using me and my situation for your glory. May others not just see a broken man, but a man you keep holding together. My greatest prayer is that I never waste this pain and I never quit believing God is greater. 

Whoever you are out there curled up in misery. You can’t understand why God is allowing you to feel so miserable. You are not alone and you are not hopeless. The God of hope will hold you, carry you, and show others His glory through you. 

I don’t share any of these words for self pity. I’m just seeking to be obedient anytime God tells me to share things. So, I will continue to be raw, real, and vulnerable if that is God’s will. I know who holds my hand and I know God will resurrect 

me once again. 🙏 

“And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.” (Romans 8:28)(NLT)