Such A Painful Reality

First, I want to thank God for helping me make it through three Easter weekend services. Despite not having any caffeine, I was able to stay focused and deliver God’s word. I spent countless hours seeking what God wanted me to preach. I also spent lots of time praying for God to move in a mighty way. Praise God, we had 333 people in attendance and 7 souls were saved. I felt God carrying me all throughout the weekend.

Afterwards, we enjoyed Easter meals with family at lunch and dinner. I thought I might escape the typical downfall of most Sunday nights. Then, suddenly it felt like my body was on fire. On top of the pain, my entire body has been breaking out with dermatitis. Praise God I see my dermatologist this Wednesday.

Last night was one of my most painful episodes. All I could do is pray for God to settle me and let me fall to sleep. With medication and my wife’s help I think I would’ve gone crazy. I would’ve given anything for someone to fill me with morphine.

Here I am again tonight knowing I’ve got to get in bed and hope to fall asleep soon. I can feel that all too familiar pain rushing into my body like a tsunami. My body feels like someone lit a match inside of me. I really have no clue what I can do to make things predictable.

I have no choice but to stop, drop, and pray. Like it or not, it’s my painful reality once again. Thank God for his grace and strength. I’m learning that I must accept my limitations and whatever God sees fit to allow. Even though the devil often threatens my joy, the Lord keeps helping me live victorious.

(1 Corinthians 15:57) But thank God! He gives us victory over sin and death through our Lord Jesus Christ.