I Didn’t Get a Choice 

I understand many people do things to contribute to their pain or illness. However, there are many of us who did nothing to create such life altering pain. Such pain can make everything you do extremely difficult. It can leave you breathless, shaking your head and begging God for relief. Trust me, I’ve lived with this reality for over 3,525 days.

Nerve pain has turned my life totally upside down. My days are full of discomfort and uncertainty. Nothing is the same for me anymore. People see me on the outside and have no clue how broken I am on the inside.

I have new challenges developing everyday. My skin continues to breakout with painful red splotches. I’m now giving myself shots called Dupixent every two weeks. Also, the pain in my left side continues to scream for my full attention. Could be related to osteoarthritis, sciatica, or something else nerve related.

It’s so hard to find people who truly understand. I hate how it affects me and those around me. I just keep seeking to believe, God has allowed this for His own good reasons. It keeps humbling me and keeps my eyes open to others who struggle in similar ways.

God, I keep putting myself in your hands. Shape me into who you created me to be for your glory. Keep giving me the grace necessary to march forward by faith. Let my painful journey encourage others alongside their journey.

“O LORD, you have sent this storm upon him for your own good reasons.” John 1:14