When You Don’t Know

Nobody feels great when absolutely nothing feels certain. This is especially true when it comes to your health. Over the past 10 years I’ve had a lot of “I don’t know” days. Now, here I am again feeling that way once again. 

I want to know what seems to be in my bloodstream. I want to know if I’ve developed some autoimmune disease. I want to know what keeps causing these painful breakouts in my hands. I want to know what is causing this pain in my left side. I want to know how progressed my osteoporosis has become. I could go on and on with things I just don’t know. 

A lot should reveal itself over these next several months. So many doctor visits, tests, bloodwork, X-rays, trials and error ahead. I look forward to even one doctor saying “I do know what’s wrong with you now.” I just long for greater clarity and clear direction. 

I’m willing to face by faith anything revealed to me. That doesn’t mean it will be easy to swallow. However, I will do whatever I can on my own part to improve my situation. I will apply any discipline possible to deal with my new health issues. I know there will always be things in life “we just don’t know”. Thank God we can be sure He does know the past, present and future. 

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Proverbs 29:11 

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.” Proverbs 3:5-6