When Your Suffering Continues

Anyone fighting a chronic health issue knows the battle never ends. You may have a great day or a great night. You may get to a greater place of healing and coping. You may reach a greater place of peace, but the hurting always sticks around.

You would think after a decade of debilitating pain, I would be used to this by now. I’m still trying to fully accept my many limitations and disappointments. My pain has affected me in so many ways. Most of all, my pain affects my wife, children, and so many that I love dearly.

I’m so grateful for how far God has brought me. Yet, every time I get one thing under control, another thing tackles me out of nowhere. My entire body continues to deal with major dermatitis breakouts. These are extremely painful especially in my hands.

Pray the shots I’m taking every two weeks will make a huge difference. It was 3 weeks ago I started taking Dupixent. They say it can take at least 3 months to experience maximum relief. In the meantime, it continues to be flared easily anytime and anywhere. Heat, sweat, stress, friction, water, and other factors pour kerosene on the fire within my body. So many questions to be answered over time with several of my new health developments.

From the moment I wake up each day the battle is raging. There is hardly a moment my mind is not having to calculate my next move. God must have really needed this to keep me humble and close to Him. So, I pray this daily burden keeps me in the center of God’s will. I pray every ounce of my suffering encourages others through their suffering. I know God has a plan and sometimes suffering is a part of it.

“Jesus went on a little farther and bowed with his face to the ground, praying, “My Father! If it is possible, let this cup of suffering be taken away from me. Yet I want your will to be done, not mine.” (Matthew 26:39)(NLT)