I Gotta Write About It

I Gotta Write About It

Lately, my health has been hitting me in so many ways. It feels like I’m constantly living on ice or heat. At any moment, without warning, nerve pain can shoot through my entire body. My left side and hip hurt, and I won’t be getting another steroid injection until April 21st. Even my chronic hives and dermatitis have been flaring up because my Dupixent shots are no longer covered by my insurance. On top of that, I’m constantly dealing with significant leg weakness for reasons I still don’t fully understand.

I’ve also been having intense headaches from the chaos within my body that I have no control over. It’s hard enough to deal with health issues, but when there are no clear solutions, it takes things to another level. You can only handle so much for so long. You can run from some problems, but you can’t run from your own body.

I truly believe this thorn in my flesh has been allowed by God. Even so, it can be incredibly debilitating, discouraging, and overwhelming at times. I have to rely fully on the Lord for every ounce of strength. I have to trust Him with every step and everything.

Chronic health issues can completely derail your plans. They can easily steal your joy if you let them. There’s hardly anything I do that isn’t significantly limited by my health. I hate how it feels, and I hate even more how it affects others.

I simply can’t do what I once could. And even though I’ve been battling this for nearly 11 years, I’m still learning how to say goodbye to the man I used to be before this affliction. You just have to take it one bite at a time.

To those living with chronic health issues you are in my prayers. I know how hard it can be just to get up. I know the determination it takes to keep moving forward. I know how isolating it can feel when others don’t understand what you’re going through.

Just know this: you are not alone. So many of us are fighting similar battles. Face your weakness by relying on God’s strength. I continue to find that His grace is sufficient and His strength is enough. The Lord will carry you and me when we feel like we can’t go on.

“I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength.”
Philippians 4:13