God Will Pick You Up
A little over 3 weeks ago I finally reached all I could take. I was truly having a nervous breakdown. My body was exhausted, my energy was gone, and my belief that anything would change was almost gone. I felt compelled to wave my white flag of surrender. I even concluded that I could not even preach on Sundays anymore.
Honestly, I was so low physically and emotionally that at best my prayers were only whispers in my mind. I had not totally lost faith, but I had certainly lost my ability to fight. I sought every bit of counsel I could from others who might bring comfort. I didn’t want to live in denial if my health had finally changed my future. I didn’t want to fall apart any further as so much was at stake. All I remember saying was “God, please help my unbelief. God resurrect my faith to trust what You can see even though I can’t.”
Over the next few weeks God began to restore my motivation towards my recovery. God began to rearrange my perspective. I was at least beginning to see my glass half full instead of just nearly empty. I remember one day recently just crying out “Jesus I Believe. I believe you can and will complete the work you’ve started in me.” I literally free fell into the arms of Jesus as I had totally reached the end of being able to carry myself.
I’m hear to tell you that God totally heard and answered my prayers. He reached into my heart and massaged it back to life. He took the blinders from my eyes and helped me see He is still at work. Today, He returned my hope the devil was determined to take away.
While nothing concerning my health has dramatically changed God has renewed my mind, heart, and hope. God has done a 180 within me and all I did was surrender everything to Him. You see, it’s in the moment that you truly give things up to God that He then picks you up. He will put the wind back in your sails and carry you where you can’t carry yourself.
“The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the fullest.” John 10:10
“Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up.” James 4:10
Pastor Craig Crosby 