You Never Get Used To It
Right now my lower back feels like a huge piece of metal is misplaced inside. Oh, what I wouldn’t give for someone to take it out. Some people say that pain is just something you’ve got to put mind over matter. Well, unless I can be hypnotized I’ve found no way to totally ignore it. Certain levels of pain just scream out for your attention.
After over 2 years of this pain I’m no longer trying to ignore it, but rather live with it. To a great degree it changes much of life as I once knew it. I can no longer just sit down or lay down in any position very long. I’ve got to calculate my every move and consider anything that might increase or decrease the pain. I never have a moment the pain is not at least in the back of my mind. The only time I’m ever pain free is when I’m knocked out asleep with medication.
So, instead of trying to ignore my painful reality I’ve got to find the best ways to deal with it. I pray without ceasing for God’s comfort and strength. I speak often with others who might offer support and perspective. I seek to take things hour by hour and day by day. There’s no use in adding future worries with enough present concerns. The good news is I find time and time again God’s grace is sufficient. No matter how deep the pain goes God always has an answer. I’m sure He will carry you through your pain as well.
“I love you, Lord, my strength. The Lord is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge, my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold. I called to the Lord, who is worthy of praise,
and I have been saved from my enemies.”