If I Had A Genie In A Bottle
We all have something we wish to God was different. Something we feel limits us, cripples us, and if we let it paralyzes us. It’s that one thing that if you did have a genie in a bottle it would be in your top three wish list that it be taken away. In your mind, life would be so much different if this or that could be changed. This is totally how I feel about my nerve damage.
I just finished having another one of those moments that I hate every time it happens. My nerve pain just made my blood pressure sky rocket. In these moments it’s like a fuse has blown inside of me. I can’t have normal conversation or handle much of anything. These nerve bouts steal my ability to process things in a clear or controlled fashion. My wrecked nervous system keeps me from wanting to be around just anyone not knowing what might happen next. When my nerve pain rages it doesn’t ask my permission. I’m simply at the mercy of my condition which can change like the weather. Oh, how I wish this seeming curse would be removed.
Dr. David Jeremiah a well known, beloved pastor has battled cancer like so many. In his book “When Your World Falls Apart” he offers some much needed insight. He says,”Trials put us in position to make a difference. They are for our benefit, as unwelcome as they are at the time. They make us better men and women, which makes us more influential men and women who can make a difference for God’s purposes. When you have walked through the fire, people begin to listen to you. When you have the wisdom borne of suffering, you begin to have the tools to accomplish something in the world.”
“Before I was afflicted I went astray, but now I obey your word…It was good for me to be afflicted so that I might learn your decrees.” (Psalm 119:67,71)