Confessions Of A Pastor
They say confession is healing, so here goes nothing. I was raised by two God fearing parents who did their best to raise us to have a healthy love for God, love for our neighbors, and live completely devoted to God’s word. Of course, there is no such thing as a perfect home. I have realized over time that my home life was quite a blessing compared to the average today. Now, I’m a preacher trying to raise four boys of my own. Here are some things I would like to confess to you.
#1: We don’t just sit around quoting scripture and singing hymns. As with most families, we’re often lucky to get all the kids to school, back home, clothes washed, everyone bathed and fed, and accomplish our daily to do list. What makes the difference for us is seeking God’s will above all else, while knowing that the rest will fall into place. Along with this, we look for teaching moments that life brings where we can teach our children the way God would have us all to go.
#2: My wife and I fight daily. Honestly, I can’t recall a day that some difference hasn’t reared its head. After all they say Men are from Mars and Women are from Venus. We have never tried to appear perfect to our kids because that would be a hopeless cause. The difference is they observe two imperfect people who no matter what life brings with God’s help always work things out. We don’t go on strike, sleep in separate bedrooms, or allow things between us to linger. We deal with it then and there as we seek to love each other as God has so loved us.
#3: We face many challenges. We too have times we stress over bills, our cars break down, our bodies grow tired, and our children act like they are demon possessed the moment they get in the same room. With four boys ages 14, 12, 10, & 4 I doubt any circus could be more entertaining than the Crosby household. The difference is Christ is the head of our home. God’s word determines what is and is not allowed. We seek to show our kids by example that no matter what life throws our way God will help us through it.
#4: The Preacher Is The Chief Sinner. Maybe other preachers have things more together, but this one makes mistakes by the hour. At times, I over react to my kids, I talk ugly to my wife, and I’m not always thinking in agreement with God’s Holy word. The difference is I meditate on God’s word daily, I understand I can’t change myself, and I daily turn myself and family over to God. Apart from God’s grace I’m a hopeless cause, but His love covers over my multitude of sins.
#5: We Have A Lot In Common. Every preacher is human too. We hurt, we cry, we struggle, we like to have fun, and we love our families. We’re all on this journey called life trying to do our best for our families. The difference is most moms and dads try to get through life issues alone. Aimee and I realize that apart from God building our marriage and family things will quickly fall apart. Therefore, we make sure we look in the mirror of God’s word daily and find it critical we surround ourselves by others who are like minded.
Here is one final confession. I’ve shared all this to say we’re all sinners in desperate need of a Savior. Yet, (Romans 5:8) says, “Even while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.” I’m so glad Jesus paid the price for my sin and salvation. I’m so glad Jesus helps me keep things together when I feel like falling apart. I pray you might come to know this same Jesus who can rescue you no matter what your situation.
“Listen..The Lord is our God, the Lord alone. And you must love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul, and all your strength. And you must commit yourselves wholeheartedly to these commands that I am giving you today. Repeat them again and again to your children. Talk about them when you are at home and when you are on the road, when you are going to bed and when you are getting up. Tie them to your hands and wear them on your forehead as reminders. Write them on the doorposts of your house and on your gates. (Deuteronomy 6:4-9)(NLT)