God You Must Think I’m Strong
I’m sure you’ve heard the old saying “God won’t put more on you than you can handle.” Well, I beg to differ with that statement. God has put way more on me than I can handle for quite awhile. And just when I feel like I can handle things I realize I just can’t.
The past 2 years have been the toughest years of my life. Prior to my severe nerve pain I already felt called to do things far beyond what I could ever do alone. Now, you might as well have knocked my legs out from under me, tied both hands behind me and then covered both eyes. I’m well aware that I can’t physically or emotionally handle more than 25 percent of what I could before. Yet, the call on my life feels even bigger than ever.
Now, I’ve tried giving myself daily pep talks. I’ve tried to beat my body into submission through strict training. I’ve even tried to just ignore my limitations and walk forward by faith. But, the painful reality that I’m just not able to overcome things in my present condition just keeps slapping me in the face. Honestly, the only option I have on the table to cope is to absolutely free fall into the arms of Jesus.
You see, if I’m to accomplish anything great it’s going to be only by the grace of God. Apart from the grace of God I must fully rely on the strength of God. I guess anything God-sized is not about what I can do after all. It seems it’s about God being glorified even in the midst of our greatest weakness. So, for my sanity and His will to be done I’ve had to digest the truth that “I can’t do much, but Christ through me can do anything.” I’ve just got to keep trusting that if God has called me to it He will take me through it.
“Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me.” 2 Corinthians 12:9