You Never Get Used To It

Maybe it’s been building? Maybe it can just be triggered in the blink of an eye? But, regardless of how it happens I never get used to it taking my breath, confidence, and joy away. I just had to pull out my heating pad and take a Valium. Once again nerve pain is surging through my body leaving me nauseous, hurting, and with a heart that keeps racing.

I’ve had such a great week considering my condition. I guess satan couldn’t wait to knock me down. You would think by now I would be used to this feeling. But, every time it puts a knot in my stomach and doubt in my mind.

Even with all my steps forward it feels like I’m back to ground zero. I know that is exactly what satan wants me to believe. He will do anything to get me to give up and quit trying. He noticed my momentum and pounced on me when I least expected it.

I’ve learned that all you can do in these moments is hold on. Don’t over think your circumstance. Don’t think this is just a physical battle, but for certain a spiritual war. You must choose to believe that Jesus is life and will get you through this valley.

“The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the fullest .”
John 10:10

Written: 10/20/17

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