Lord, I Need You

Written: 12-19-17

Here I go again. I’m back in the hot tub due to nerve pain running throughout my body. Had to take another Valium for the first time in about 2 weeks. All evening has been rough as I just don’t feel comfortable in my own skin. Lord knows I would give anything for this thorn in my flesh to be taken away.

No, I’m not questioning God concerning my suffering. I just simply don’t enjoy suffering. But, just because I’m a believer or a pastor doesn’t make me exempt from it. We all struggle in many different ways. And, trust me I know it can always be worse.

However, even with great faith your feelings go all over the place when you feel so bad. You have to keep praying for peace and keep fighting for perspective. You need people like my wife to hold your hand and remind you this too shall pass. You definitely realize in these moments your desperateness for God’s helping and healing hands. It’s when you truly discover what you actually believe.

The only way I’ve made it this far is by continually putting my little hands into His great big hands. Nearly everyday I think I can’t keep going. Thankfully everyday God wakes me up and picks me up. Praise God for His constant grace and mercy!

“Yet I still dare to hope when I remember this: The faithful love of the Lord never ends! His mercies never cease. Great is his faithfulness; his mercies begin afresh each morning.”
Lamentations 3:21-23

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