God Is Making Me Over
I know deep in my heart that I must officially say goodbye to the old me. Gone are the days that I can live as a daily oncall chaplain. Gone are the days that I can go play baseball or basketball with my boys. Gone are the days that I can go out with my wife and know my pain won’t potentially ruin our date. Gone are the days without dominating nerve pain. At least that is my present reality.
As I continue to grieve this reality I’m constantly trying to discover my new normal. Instead of focusing on what I can’t do I’m looking for what I can. I’m also believing that God is using all of this pain to readjust my sights for His present will. God wants me to live in the here and now with all I have to offer and been through. It’s not that my life will take on less value, but I believe I will be shown newer ways to love God and people.
I’m simply allowing the potter to mold me into whoever and whatever He sees best. It’s so hard to say goodbye to the old me, but it’s time to embrace the new me. I wholeheartedly believe that through all my past and present heartache God is making me over.
(Isaiah 64:8)(NIV) Yet you, LORD, are our Father. We are the clay, you are the potter; we are all the work of your hand.
(Jeremiah 18:1-5)(NLT) The LORD gave another message to Jeremiah. He said, “Go down to the potter’s shop, and I will speak to you there.” So I did as he told me and found the potter working at his wheel. But the jar he was making did not turn out as he had hoped, so he crushed it into a lump of clay again and started over. Then the LORD gave me this message: “O Israel, can I not do to you as this potter has done to his clay? As the clay is in the potter’s hand, so are you in my hand.