It’s No Coincidence To Me
I’m not sure most are aware, but my health issues over the past 30 months from a major slip and fall work injury has rocked my life in practically every way imaginable. Other than losing my wife or children practically everything has changed as a result of blow after blow. I’ve been knocked out of daily work the majority of the time. I’ve been in major discomfort practically everyday and night. My medications literally have quadrupled since my first of three surgeries back on May 5th, 2016.
With each med increase has come increased side effects that further limit my ability to think, concentrate, or handle much of anything. I rarely go anywhere besides Sunday morning church that doesn’t involve a doctor’s appointment, physical therapy or counseling. I’ve missed over 5 months away from preaching alone and even that is something evaluated on a weekly basis. I can no longer counsel, pastor, or visit folks like I did before. There is no activity you can even mention that I can easily attempt or enjoy. I spend 4-5 hours daily in a hot tub just for some relief.
II’ve missed so many key moments with my children and wife as my nerve pain keeps paralyzing my every move. My teenagers keep growing up and my time keeps standing still. Every medical procedure I’ve needed has been an absolute dog fight dealing with the Workman’s compensation system that interrogates you constantly.
We’ve not only had to move out of our local rental home we can’t get financing for a new home with my health and finances still so uncertain. We’ve had to rely heavily on family and friends to get us through each week. I’ve had to do anything possible to keep myself from full blown depression and to maintain a hopeful mindset. And, every time I think the nightmare is over I just keep getting knocked down to my knees.
In fact, even in the life of my church I’ve noticed something that just isn’t coincidence. Every time the ministry has made a significant move forward I’ve been taken down. I’ve practically delegated everything I can to others besides preaching. I’m trying my best to keep that one thing as it at least gets me out the bed one day a week and focused on something on helping others rather than my pain. My severe neuropathy prevents me from doing anything that requires critical thinking or crisis. Which was what most of my life use to revolve around.
Now, knowing you’re called to lead out a mission intended to reach countless throughout Colleton County and beyond already keeps you on your knees. But, during every significant break through season I’ve always been dealt another unforeseen blow. I know it’s no coincidence that the enemy keeps throwing his flaming arrows. Doctors keep telling me that my severe nerve pain is irreparable and that I’m headed for certain disability. All God keeps telling me to do is hold on and seek to maintain my faith.
You see, it’s when we become a true threat to the enemy that the defense rises up even more. When you’ve resolved in your heart that no matter what life throws your way you will seek God’s will. It’s then the enemy throws your way every trick in the book. He wants you to feel out of breath, helpless, and hopeless. Now, I can’t control all that goes on with my health or future disappointments. But, I can recognize that the enemy’s main objective is not just to discourage, depress, or detour me. But, ultimately he is set out to kill God’s every hope and dream for my life.
“Stay alert! Watch out for your great enemy, the devil. He prowls around like a roaring lion, looking for someone to devour”
(1 Peter 5:8)
Jesus said, “The thief’s purpose is to steal and kill and destroy. My purpose is to give them a rich and satisfying life.”