A Painful Work In Progress
My body finally collapsed last night and with the help of some knock out meds gave me a whopping 4 hours sleep. The itching in my hands and feet from this nerve pain has been very bad. I spent over 4 hours straight in the hot tub yesterday evening, but I just don’t feel like staying in there every minute. I’m sure I’ll be back in there soon.
This pain can be blinding at times. In fact, I would be afraid to see someone dealing with this without faith. They would have to smoke something strong or keep swallowing something to numb the body and mind. It’s relentless. I wake up to it and go to bed with it. I would love to say something has changed, but the only thing that’s changed has been me.
I’ve learned how to cope a little better with the constant ups and downs. I’ve learned how to persevere through it most of the time. I’ve learned how to ask for help often, otherwise I would have long given up. I have learned to do whatever it takes to take care of myself. It sounds selfish, but most of my life revolves around the consideration of my health mind, body, and soul. While my humanity can’t be hidden Godliness is being developed day by grace, through faith in Jesus Christ.
“For God is working in you, giving you the desire and the power to do what pleases him.”