Worse Helps You Appreciate Better
If you’ve followed my journey you know I’ve had some pretty rough days. I’m talking countless days I just wished I could be knocked out. Moments that I wondered if I could take another second of the pain. Days that I couldn’t if I wanted hide the pain. Days that if it weren’t for the prayers of many there is no way I make it through. I’m sure I will have some more of those days ahead with my condition.
However, today I’m so grateful for any relief I’m experiencing. For at least 5 days in a row my spinal cord stimulator has kept my nerve pain level from being insane. I remember well the difference between insane and just pain. The insane makes you think things you never thought possible. The misery feels never ending and you feel hopeless in those moments.
Now, most wearing my body right now would not be celebrating. Because the pain is still great most of the time. My entire lower body feels like I’ve been kicked relentlessly. But, I’m so grateful for this pain because I’ve experienced the insane. Had I never experienced the worse days I could never be as grateful for the better days. Today is way better than many days before. Now, to take my morning medication and hope to sleep a few more hours.
“Your awe-inspiring deeds will be on every tongue; I will proclaim your greatness. Everyone will share the story of your wonderful goodness; they will sing with joy about your righteousness. The Lord is merciful and compassionate, slow to get angry and filled with unfailing love.”