I Hate Feeling This Way, But
It’s been a rough evening overall. My body is just out of sorts since my recent Myelogram. I’m sure it will eventually change, but I always hate this feeling. My nervous system often feels on fire within. It makes me so uncomfortable in my own skin from head to toe. Pondering living the rest of my life this way is more than I can bear.
But, I know God has given me a mission. A mission to encourage others who are silently suffering. Those who feel like nobody understands them. Those who feel like nobody cares. I believe loneliness mixed with ongoing pain is lethal.
While I hate how I feel most of the time I can’t escape God’s call. I must be a voice for those hurting all around me. I must establish opportunity where chronic illness and God’s love collide. I must allow my painful story to help others through their painful journey. Still I hate feeling this way, but I see God at work daily through it.
“He comforts us in all our troubles so that we can comfort others. When they are troubled, we will be able to give them the same comfort God has given us.”
2 Corinthians 1:4