I wonder why I feel like I’ve spent my life at a doctor’s office! Over the past 5 1/2 months alone I’ve gone to 30 different appointments at some type of health facility. All of that precious time has only made my attempts at recovery even tougher. The worst thing for me to have to do is sit or drive for any length of time. But, it’s the merry go round I’ve been on for quite some time.

I basically have to decide by this coming Monday whether I want my surgeon to remove my present stimulator battery implant and replace it with my old battery. My present battery that has only been in me for 2 months is uncomfortable all the time. Now, I not only can’t lay flat on my back, but I can’t lay comfortably on my right side. As much as I would love to get it out I just don’t know if my body can endure being cut on for a fourth time in less than 2 years time. I sure wish all involved would truly know their facts before doing these things to me. Soon my new name will simply be called “Scar Tissue.”

I’m really 50/50 about this entire ordeal. I’m mostly leaning towards not getting the old battery put in because my body is cringing every time I think about enduring more surgical pain. At the same time, if I keep this uncomfortable battery implant I’m basically going to have to deal with it for at least 7 years. Sometimes I just think I must be dreaming because everything that could go wrong with my care over time has gone wrong. Even still, God is still God.

“He says, “Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations,I will be exalted in the earth.” Psalm 46:10

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