Just Before I Preach


It’s 9:10am as I write this knowing I’ve got to preach two worship services this morning. No one really understands but God exactly what I feel. Anyone evaluating what’s going inside my body right now would yell “Just Give Up.” But, everything within me is saying “Just Hold On.” I’m constantly hearing both voices around the clock. 

My body is literally trembling as I’m afraid I might breakdown any moment. My nerve pain is literally covering my feet to my face. Red splotches are popping up all over due to the level of the current inside me. The heaviness sitting on my chest has me hostage. In so many ways I’m being held hostage by my pain. Every step is painful and every thought is overwhelming. 

Once again all I can say is “Jesus I Need You.” Pick me up again and carry me through this valley. Speak despite me and through me. I can’t even walk without you holding my hand. Hold me together so I don’t fall completely apart. I run to you for rest for my weary soul. 

“Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest.”

Matthew 11:28

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