Back To Reality
I hate this feeling more every time. Once again I took enough meds to knock out a horse hours ago. My legs have been killing me the entire time with no sign of that changing. My battery site and lower back are distributing their normal pain. All of it just keeps me miserable by the second. Why me Lord is what I want to scream. But, why not me as I would not wish this on my worst enemy.
I get so disappointed when I think I’m headed for better days. I’m able to predict my pain like the weather man is able to predict the daily forecast. I truly did have a decent day and now I’m back to having another night from Hell. This dog fight is constant and there are no wonderful feeling moments. There are just times that aren’t quite as bad.
Heavenly Father, have your way in my life. Accomplish your will despite how I feel or what I’m going through. I know pain and suffering is a part of this life. Even still I need your help to make it through the pain. Show me what to do, where to go, how to endure this fiery trial. Help me to not give up on my miracle, yet still remain faithful through the present pain.
“ I have told you all this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world.”