A Breaker Must Be Tripped
I’ve not even gotten out of bed yet and my nerve pain is already on the edge of insane. It has nothing to do with anything on my mind. It has nothing to do with anything I have done. I’ve only slept a little over four hours and my body simply can’t function on that little of rest. I’m exhausted but I can’t sleep because of my nerve sensitivity.
It’s obvious that a lot of fuses are blown inside my nervous system. Even while I’m resting it picks up even the slightest sound or motion waves. Just a door closing lightly, someone walking by quietly or someone calling my name startles my entire body. Something like electricity runs through both feet, legs, and all the way up into my chest within seconds. The current is so strong and so sensitive. My legs continue to vibrate.
I finally had to take a Valium just in hopes of settling this mighty force. This by far is my greatest kryptonite at the present time. It zaps all my strength and power in one clip. It has a hold on my body in a way I can’t fully explain. I’m writing these words while laying on my side just to process this hard to believe reality. I don’t understand what’s happening even though it’s happen countless times. But, I know God does understand how He plans to use this bizarre weakness. He will take car of and he will relieve of this trial when the time is right.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take.”