Will Life Ever Be The Same?
I would imagine this is a question that many ask themselves after a deep sense of loss. I know many feel this way after the loss of a very close loved one. Crazy thing is I’ve not had any recent loss of a loved one. No one in my strong circle of family or friends has abandoned me. Yet, I’m grieving inside as I ponder this question and stare my current reality in the face.
We’ve all heard the saying “you don’t know what you’ve got until it’s gone.” I dearly miss the life I once had and the health I once enjoyed . It’s been so long since I’ve had that former life I’m really struggling to believe that I will ever have it again. I just constantly feel terrible. And, at this present time I only see a true miracle from above changing my current reality.
It’s not that I’ve lost faith that God can change things. I have begun losing some faith that God will change things. I don’t have the right to tell God what is best and will bring Him the most glory. I want so much to believe there will be a happy ending to this painful journey. But, will that happen this side or the other side of Heaven. I think the hardest things to grieve are things that you can’t just forget and move on. How can I when I’ve been sick so long and my pain only seems to be getting greater. Even still, I’ve got to trust in a God who loves me, has always taken care of me, and knows the plans He has ahead for me. It’s hard to swallow most of the time. But, my faith in a God who has never failed me before gives me hope.
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”