I Rediscovered Something
Today, I got out the house for the first time in five days. I had an 11am counseling appointment that was an hour drive one way. When I got back home four hours later I got my haircut. Physically I’m still breathing hard and my lower body is exhausted. My physical pain is just as great and my nerves are stimulated just as easy as before. However, mentally I’m doing so much better.
Just to get out the house did me wonders. To get things off my chest was very relieving. And, while nothing physically has really changed my mind is in a much better place. I no longer feel like I’m wandering alone through the desert. I once again feel God’s presence and see clearer God’s purpose for my pain.
There is no denying that ongoing pain is a physical and mental battle. Either part can take you down. But, when both overwhelm you the buzzards will swarm. I’ve rediscovered that how you see things makes a huge difference in your ability to move forward by faith. My mind may not change my current reality, but it certainly helps me better deal with that reality in a way that honors God.
“Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect.”