Another Late Night

Every night seems to be the same. I take several meds in hopes of falling asleep. I turn my heating pad on it’s highest setting. I wait on my legs to quit throbbing. I put on some special cream to hopefully stop my hands and feet from itching. Literally, I’ve got one area in my lower back that causes my entire nervous system to daily go haywire.

How do I make it? I choose to keep walking by faith. To believe that God can use this struggle. To trust God still has a plan. I choose to obey God regardless of what my future might hold. Of course, the pain has long out stayed it’s welcome.

If I didn’t have faith I would have long ago given up. If I didn’t have faith I couldn’t see beyond the moment. If I didn’t have faith I would stay medicated and not want to wake up. But, I do have faith that God will move mountains. I’ve just got to stay the course and keep trusting God with every step I take.

“Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.”
(2 Corinthians 4:16-18)

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