God Rescued Me
Recently, I’ve been able to associate myself with some words I wondered would ever be possible again. For 38 months straight all I knew was unpredictable and flat broken. Several highly credible doctors have confirmed my nervous system is permanently broken. My symptoms have daily confirmed they’re each right to a high degree of medical certainty. After awhile your consistent misery starts to define you.
However, I can now say I’ve experienced a new consistency. A consistency of bearable pain and measurable progress. While I still have many limitations. I’m able to smile again. I’m not constantly feeling pinned down by pain. I’m able to sleep through the night with medication. I don’t feel depressed every minute, but hopeful God will continue to carry me forward.
Now, I still take my normal medications which do not include any narcotics. I still lean heavily on the consistent help of my spinal cord stimulator. I also strive daily to walk and make decisions I’ve learned are best for my condition. But, for the longest time even doing all those things didn’t keep my life from being miserable and unpredictable. My life is now usually predictable and my condition is so much more bearable. I have great reason to smile from sun up to sun down. I thank God constantly for any relief and progress.
“He reached down from on high and took hold of me, he drew me out of deep waters. He rescued me from my powerful enemy, from my foes, who were too strong for me. They confronted me in the day of my disaster, but the Lord was my support. He brought me out into a spacious place; he rescued me because he delighted in me. The Lord has dealt with me according to my righteousness; according to the cleanness of my hands he has rewarded me. For I have kept the ways of the Lord; I am not guilty of turning from my God.” (Psalm 18:16-21)