I Refuse To Go Back
Spent the evening out with my 8 year old tonight. We went to Wendy’s, Walmart, and drove around to see some Christmas lights. There is no doubting that I stayed in the driver’s seat for far too long. Nerve pain is presently running from my feet to my face keeping me nauseous. I’ve taken some more meds that should have me knocked out sooner than later.
Now, I may not like how I feel, but I refuse to let it steal my joy. It’s just another tough moment that will pass soon. I refuse to not keep on living life to the fullest. My limits don’t have to keep me discouraged, defeated, or depressed. I refuse to just see the negative in my situation. God is using this pain to keep me humble and close to His heart. I simply can’t deny this truth.
Sure, I don’t know what the future holds. However, I refuse to let my worries about it consume me. God has brought me so far. I’ve learned how to fight when you feel like giving up. I’ve learned how to wait on God when nothing seems to be changing. And, I’ve learned that with God in the equation you can get through anything to anywhere. You just have to refuse to go backwards and keep walking by faith forward.
“When you go through deep waters, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown. When you walk through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned up; the flames will not consume you.” (Isaiah 43:2)