It’s Just Where I Am
To many looking on all they see is a healthy looking pastor. Someone they desperately need during their time of crisis. Someone they know cares deeply and would do anything to lead them towards God’s best. Someone who is willing to stop whatever he is doing to help them or their loved ones. Someone who has been able to do all of the above for a very long time.
If they had video surveillance they would find someone struggling more than ever to just get out the bed each morning. Someone still having to literally calculate every move due to my present health. Literally every minute nerve pain is running throughout my body like lightning. Yet, today alone I will still give all my heart in preaching a funeral and finishing up my message notes for this Sunday’s sermon. I still can get more phone calls and requests in one day than many will ever see in any one month.
I’m learning that no matter what is begging urgently for my attention I have to be honest about my present situation. Especially since I’m constantly one move away from being able to do nothing if I don’t. I literally say no to 9 out of 10 requests that come my way. Yet, usually by Sunday afternoon alone my week ahead is already full. Please understand that I love serving God and helping people. I wish I didn’t have a life altering health issue constantly limiting me. However, it’s just where I am and it may be how I have to operate the rest of my earthly life.
“You say, “I am allowed to do anything”–but not everything is good for you. You say, “I am allowed to do anything”–but not everything is beneficial.” (1 Corinthians 10:23)
“Just say a simple, ‘Yes, I will,’ or ‘No, I won’t.’ Anything beyond this is from the evil one.” (Matthew 5:37)