There’s Nothing More Doctors Can Do
I wish so badly things weren’t this way. My pain continues to feel breath taking. Its draining every ounce of my strength. My legs feel like they can barely move. I couldn’t hide my battle if I tried.
My wife asked earlier “don’t you think you should go to the doctor?” That’s when the cold hard truth hit me like a ton of bricks. I replied, “don’t you realize there is absolutely nothing more any doctor can do.” This echoed in my heart the permanence of my condition from a human standpoint. I guess this is something I’m still fighting to swallow.
I just can’t get this spinal cord stimulator back in rhythm. Or maybe there is some kind of bug in my system. I’ve been here before and I’m sure I will be here again. My anxiety is minimal, but my frustration level is pretty high. It makes me feel so useless and powerless. I simply must keep calling my God who make the impossible, possible. Because Lord knows I can’t change a thing in my strength.
“Jesus looked at them intently and said, “Humanly speaking, it is impossible. But with God everything is possible.” Matthew 19:26