It’s So Embarrassing
I had just gotten out the shower and all I did was lift one arm in the air. Next thing I know my entire left shoulder is out of commission. Yes, as if I needed further issues. It’s as if a million muscle spasms attacked me all at once. It was all I could do to move and try to lay down on my side. I yelled for my wife to come and help me try to work it out. My 17 year old son even tried to no avail.
Even now the knots are still there. The tightness between my neck and shoulder are breathtaking. However, I know it will settle down eventually. Hopefully the muscle relaxer I’ve taken will bring some relief. Most of all, this stuff just becomes so humiliating.
Today, I had plans to help with a church event. Unfortunately, I had to get some others to do things I was wholeheartedly committed to doing myself. This kind of stuff gets very old and disheartening. I told one gentleman that I was so sorry his pastor is such train wreck. While he offered very encouraging words it didn’t change my feelings of shame.
Now, I know why so many others who struggle often apologize. They tell me they feel so embarrassed. I always tell them it’s nothing you can control or should view as embarrassing. Nonetheless, I’ve got to swallow my pride and constantly remind myself it’s never about me. God has reasons for everything he allows.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take.” Proverbs 3:5-6
Pastor Craig Crosby 