Humbling, Healing, Going, Growing
It’s been a great two days compared to the last many before. My spinal cord stimulator continues to provide consistent relief. My recent shot injection site has remained bearable. Even despite only 4 1/2 hours sleep last night I’m encouraged by what I’m feeling. Of course, I definitely need to get much better sleep tonight if my body is to keep healing.
As I continue to let God use my story I’ve noticed something. I’m still grieving deep inside the old me. More than ever I realize how much life changed with this God allowed life trauma experience. Yes, it’s okay to still shed a tear as reflecting back puts a lump in your throat. It’s in that moment someone else who is struggling realizes you understand life altering pain.
For me, I know I’m still learning, growing and feeling my way through each day. I no longer work for God. Instead, I choose to walk with God so He can work despite me. This fall taught me how to consistently humble myself before the Lord. To quit relying on my gut and truly put my trust in my God. While it might feel like I’m still falling apart each day. God has been picking me up and putting me back together daily.
“Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time.” 1 Peter 5:6