Just Barely Hanging On
Today has just not been easy. My neuropathy has been flaring all throughout my body. My vision is still blurred by my meds. My mind has struggled to see anything in a non stressful manner. I’m just having one of those really tough days.
I guess the good news is I’m able to recognize what is actually happening. That I’m not going crazy or being dramatic. I’m just dealing with one of those days. Those days when the condition you have makes you feel defeated. In your mind you just can’t see beyond how you feel in the moment.
Yes, I experience this quite often. Generally at least once a week I totally crash inside. I feel stuck in this broken body. I wonder if it’s one day gonna take me totally down. Then, I remember how many times God has picked me up. Even in the midst of the panic attacks and the total brokenness.
Fortunately, God has taken me through many tough days. Therefore, I know how to take joy in what God is doing when I can’t do anything. God often uses the pain to accomplish His greater purpose. The toughest days Get us back aligned with God if we choose to trust Him with the trials.
“Dear brothers and sisters, when troubles of any kind come your way, consider it an opportunity for great joy. For you know that when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow. So let it grow, for when your endurance is fully developed, you will be perfect and complete, needing nothing. James 1:2-4