A Day I Hope Not To Repeat

Finally laying down in hopes of getting some sleep. I’m going to bed feeling I could throw up due to these constant nerve sensations. There is not a part of me that doesn’t feel uncomfortable. This stuff is kinda like an earthquake inside of my body. It just shakes me all over. Afterwards I’m just left to deal with its aftermath.

Today is not one of those days I hope to repeat anytime soon. It’s the kind of day that makes you feel all progress is lost. It really has been weeks if not months since my nerves felt so out of whack. It’s been nearly two months since I’ve even had to adjust my spinal cord stimulator. And, I’m not really sure of doing so can help these nonstop tremors.

I’m just asking God to help me fall asleep quickly. To settle my heart, nerves and body. Right now you would think I got into some kind of accident. Yet, I’ve not even left the house today. As you can tell I’m deeply disturbed by these feelings. Thank God they are just feelings and I know things can change.

“Have compassion on me, LORD, for I am weak. Heal me, LORD, for my bones are in agony.” Psalm 6:2

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