So So Anxious Inside
Right now, it’s just after midnight. There’s literally not one fiber of my body that is not fried and aching with nerve pain. My heart is pounding and feels like it could explode. My hands, face, legs and feet are consumed with a constant burning situation. I’ve taken an emergency Valium just hoping to calm the fire raging within me.
I haven’t slept well the past two nights. Sadly,I won’t have a chance to sleep much tonight. In less than 5 1/2 hours I have to get up. I will drive an hour to a medical appointment that will last from 8am until around 3-4pm. I had to get a lot done early so I could focus on this very important health assessment. Now, my body is just trembling.
When I get in this condition I feel paralyzed by even the slightest stress. I long to talk with someone who truly understands the madness within my body. I will never understand how it can jump from zero to sixty in a split second. In these moments you can’t trust your feelings. It makes me feel like I’m going crazy. It’s breathtaking and so painful. All I can do is pray and ask others to pray for you.
“Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:6-7