Giving It All To God
This will be my last post for at least a few days. Unfortunately, tonight things quickly unraveled from seemingly better to worse. All I tried to do was reach down for my bath towel and the pain came rushing back. Now, I have radiating pain in my lower back and both hips. Reaching down for anything is not only breathtaking, but no longer an option.
Sadly, my wife is back to doing everything physically for me. The pain and spazzing muscles have felt paralyzing. Most of all, this level of pain takes me mentally to a place I never hoped to return. Only past experiences and victories have kept me from having panic attacks this time around. I’ve honestly felt very calm even while being very concerned.
That said, I know I can’t control much. This life altering pain will either be short lived or something that will last quite awhile. Either way me and Jesus will walk through it together. So, I’m not gonna feed my pain with lots of careless thoughts. Instead, I’m gonna pray without ceasing and truly give it all to God.
After several hours of wrestling with misery tonight my extra meds have finally calmed the present storm. Hopefully, I can get a good nights sleep and tomorrow will be some better. No matter what tomorrow brings I will choose to trust the Lord with all my heart.
Whatever you may be going through, please know I’m praying for you. There is absolutely nothing God can’t carry you or me through. He has proven this time and time again. We’ve got to keep listening for his voice and trusting fully his master plan.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take.” (Proverbs 3:5-6)
Pastor Craig Crosby 