I QUIT TRYING
Ever just not know what to say? Ever reach your limit of heartache? Ever realize that you just can’t handle anything else? I personally have reached the end of myself. In fact, the only thing I’m certain of right now is there is a God and I’m not him.
I’m surrounded by things I can’t explain or understand. I’ve observed firsthand more crisis in the past month alone than most will observe in a lifetime. I have to admit that it has me wondering what will happen next. Sadly, I’m not even surprised anymore when my phone rings telling me another unthinkable thing has happened.
You see, for the past twenty years of ministry I’ve been one of those guys accustomed to playing rescue ranger. You know, I’ll show up at your house and just fix everything. Honestly, I finally met my match enough times that I’ve quit trying.
No, I’ve not given up on God’s goodness or greatness. No, I’ve not quit trying to do anything I can to help someone in need. But, I have quit trying to play God in anyone’s life. This has been liberting to say the least.
You see, we all have to know where we end and God begins. We all need to know our limits and how to turn things over to a God who has no limits. I’m learning that processing things to death only causes me more griefs. I got tired of pretending like I could fix things that were way beyond me. So, I just gave everything over to God.
Yes, I’m letting go and letting God. In the midst of a recent heart wrenching crisis, I just kept saying “You take it God, this is way too big for me. Accomplish what you want through this situation. I don’t understand it, but you do. I have no control over anything, but you have control over everything.”
I really do believe we have to reach the end of ourselves before we will truly surrender everything into God’s hands. Well, I’ve reached the end of me and I’ve decided I will no longer try to play God. What peace I’ve found in giving God everything and everyone that used to weigh so heavily on my heart.
(Matthew 11:28-30) Jesus said, “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”
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